Some Days are Simply Special

Some days are a bit more exciting than others.  Take today, for example.  It’s a regular morning, with the howler monkeys calling on the forest behind the house, their calls reverberating through the trees, echoed by the calls of a separate troop a few hundred meters away.  We woke up to the usual mix of bird songs, oropendolas gurgling softy over their recently completed long-hanging basket nests; a band of parakeets chatter while feeding on the top of a tree; three or four large parrots, quietly forage.  Crested guans softly calli each other from the trees.  Other small birds sing, chitter, warble.  It’s 6 a.m. and all’s well…

Suddenly, all hell breaks loose.  The guans begin to scream, not call, scream, a continuous and deafening whaa-whaa-whaa!  Five or six or more of them at the same time.  The parrots and parakeets start to scream too, joined by every motmot, oropendola, and every single other bird in the vicinity, all screaming at the top of their lungs.  A band of peccaries comes running through the compound towards the forest.  The howler monkeys, close and far, also screech.  It is really a five-alarm fire, an all-hands-on-deck call, all the alarms at full blast.  What the heck?

We’re already outside the house, going to breakfast.  With our binoculars we scan the trees.  Something is up and we don’t know what it is.  Suddenly it becomes clear.  A very large immature Ornate hawk-eagle (Spizaetus ornatus) is sitting on a branch near the house clearing, watching and listening.  Its body is creamy white, fine black barring on its chest, thick black bars across the underside of its slate-gray tail, two black “teardrop” markings drooping from its eyes, and the all characteristic and diagnostic crest over its head.  The cinnamon colors of the adult are barely starting to show, but it is clear it is an immature, huge, even  gigantic when compared to other local raptors.  Its prey consists normally of other birds and mammals, like monkeys or pacas.  It can take prey a couple of times its size.  No wonder the entire forest went berserk!  Claudia scrambles to the house for the field guide while I watch, deafened by the stridency of the moment.  The eagle finally has enough, spreads its wings, and flies off, stealth be damned.  The entire county knows she’s here.

As soon as if flies silently away, it is like someone pulls the sound plug.  Silence.  Everyone is quiet, watching, waiting.  Is it gone?  Is it safe again?  Can we resume our normal lives?  My questions go in the direction of How can a hawk or an eagle make a living with all these neighborhood watchdogs?  How can it catch anything when at first sight EVERYONE starts screaming BLOODY MURDER IN THE WING!  It is tough to be a predator.  It is fascinating to see a disparate assemblage of animals focus as a single mind to warn off a predator.

We go on towards breakfast, distracted, still looking at the field guide for a positive I.D.  I look at the bromeliad-covered stump next to the trail, the one I look at every single day, with its hummingbird flowers, its poison-dart frogs, playing hide-and-seek-the-little-jewel games amidst the mosses, ferns and dead leaves.  I look up at the larger bromeliad and see two fresh exuviae (larval skins) of a little puzzling dragonfly that appears to live within the tiny ponds of water held on the axils of the plant.  One of them is very dark…too dark…Oh my!  It is the whole larvae that has walked out of the water and is perched on the leaf ready to emerge!  Now I will be able to photograph the event, collect the larval skin and the adult and get a positive identification of this rare species.  We go to breakfast, I eat quickly, get a plastic bag for my collection, and rush back to the bromeliad.  The larvae is already coming out!  Argh!  I’m not ready!  Hold it!  I snap a couple of shots with my little Pentax and run to the house to get my good camera.  Then I park in front of the emerging miracle, snapping pictures, looking around for someone with whom to share this special moment.  Eventually people come by, on a bicycle…screech!  “Wanna see something cool?”  Cameras come out, everyone is watching the miracle of birth (well, not technically correct, more like ecdysis and emergence, but close enough for romantics).  It starts to rain.  Claudia gets an umbrella while I stand dripping getting wet, camera and all.  I decide to cut the section of leaf and take the emerging adult to the office to complete the process.  As I am cutting, the little delicate thing falls down and its teneral, delicate wings get crushed, together with my heart.  Ugh!  Still it is alive, it will complete its hardening and will become a positive record and beautiful pictures of this species on the bromeliads.  I see that its lymph, the insect blood that is pumped to the wings to expand them is jewel green, something I would have never seen if it wasn’t for the accident.  Hours later, the adult is full dry, wings defective, but it is walking around my desk.  I won’t be able to release it (it can’t fly) but it will serve a role in science.

Lunch time comes along.  We walk to the dining hall, commenting on things, species we have seen, the strange, sort-of-disturbing smell of some green orchids by the bridge that only smell at night (Epidendrum hunterianum, or Hunters’s Epidendrum, how original…).  Enrique Castro, our Biodiversity Programs Manager, is also an expert on orchids and he rattles off the name.  however, he was not aware of the smell it disperses only nat night.  What is it trying to attract?  Something to find out, of course.  Inquiring minds want to know!  After lunch I go back to the office just in time to hear a call on the radio.  “Please let don Carlos know that there’s a tropical chameleon on the bridge.”  A what?  A chameleon?  We don’t have chameleons in La Selva!  I grab the radio.  “Copied.  On my way.”  Somehow saying that on the radio makes me feel sillingly important.

I arrive to a crowd on the bridge, tourists snapping pictures, three or four of my staff hanging out pointing, Claudia, a couple of students.  I feel like yelling “OK everyone.  Clear the bridge!  Let me take a look.”  I actually say that in jest to a researcher coming my way, making her guffaw.  I look over the cables, and there it is.  A juvenile bush anole or forest iguana, Polychrus gutturosus, looking a lot like a common green iguana baby, but with an exaggeratedly long brown tail.  It starts to walk hesitantly on the branches, very much like a little chameleon, to which I now see the resemblance.  It goes up and down branches, peeking through the foliage to disappear again, giving me a single opportunity for a so-so photo.  Orlando Vargas, one of the most knowledgeable field biologists I know, and in charge of our scientific operations, explains how rare this is.  In thirty years on the region, he has only seen this species three times.  They tend to live high up in the canopy, coming close to the ground to mate (he saw that once) and disappear again up the trees, where few humans dare tread.

I now sit in my office, looking at my photos, fascinated by the little jewels of biological information gleaned today.  There were more, of course, but these few will make for a memorable day.

Carlos de la Rosa

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Step, Stop, Stand, Scan, Stare, Stalk, Shoot!

I stopped the other day on the side of one of La Selva’s long trails and started to take pictures of what was happening on a section of a fallen tree, glued to one sport because there was so much going on.  Three or four groups of people walked by my spot in the hour that followed: two on bird walks (binoculars, spotting scopes, enormous lenses, tripods and knowledgeable guide); one a group of students on a break (water bottles, shorts, loud chatter, not the right kinds of shoes); and one a self-guided tour, (foreign accents, more enormous lenses, photo vests, kaki-clothing throughout, a strong and lingering smell of bug repellent).  Not one of them stop or wondered what I was photographing or observing.  They just walked by, said ”hi” and went on, either looking up for birds or just chatting with each other.  I find that puzzling, mostly because there is so much to see even is a small patch of space, on a tree trunk, under a bunch of wet leaves, along the edge of a trail.  There are many more stories than a bird checklist and I wonder why they are not told more often.

This morning, I decided to go slow-walk on the patch of forest behind the house and look for stories, for drama, see what I could find.  I thought of doing a little experiment: take a small patch, let’s say 10 meter by 10 meter (that’s like ten long step by ten long steps square) and just wonder through it to see what was there.  I spent about 2 hours on this patch, and I couldn’t quite make it all the way through the perimeter, never mind reaching the center or other areas within.  How come?

First of all, this little patch is not simple.  It is three-dimensional, with the height dimension being 40 or 50 meters high.  So as I walk around, things fall from above, flowers, leaves, small branches, feathers.  Frass (a nice way to call “insect poop”) literally rains down continuously.  A small group of caterpillars on a shrub can produce quite a volume of it in a few hours.  On occasion, a branch laden with bromeliads, mosses and whatnots detaches from the parent tree and comes crashing down, veritable “widow-makers” in the forest, and something that researchers and hikers are warned about on some trails near dead giant trees.  Above my head, the bulk of the forest lives and breathes, letting gravity pull down to the ground all of their waste materials and the products of the resident creature’s lives for the soil to recycle them into nutrients again.  The portion of the patch I could easily explore is only a small fraction of the entire “cuboid.”  Without a ladder, ropes or a canopy tower I can only explore what’s on the ground and up to a height of no more than 1.5 meters or so.  That beautiful orange-yellow butterfly that just landed barely 4 meters above my head will escape the prying eyes of my camera or loupe.

But this area, this human-scale cube of forest provides an enormous amount of action, activity, tragedy and comedy.  I notice I walk around in some sort of a pattern: I take a step, watching my feet so as not to step on a snake, a ground-dwelling creature, a poison-dart frog or a pile of peccary dung; then I stop, stand quietly looking around, scanning the area within sight.  Something moves, or emerges from the chaotic pattern, and I stare.  What is it?  Is it alive?  The shape resolves into an animal, a fruit, or an interesting piece of action and I stalk, moving quietly but steadily towards it, camera in position, manually focusing until it is framed and then…

Focus…Click!  Flash!  Wow!  The “wow!” is often part of the reaction, because it is usually unexpected.  A little swaying leaf resolves into an immature praying mantis, its movement an exact mimic of a green leaf moved by the breeze.  Or while looking at one thing, something else comes into the patch I’m watching, like a translucent but brightly colored tortoise beetle landing on a leaf smack in front of my camera.  The “Bio-Files” in my brain make a quick identification (more often than not there’s no data in these files and I’m clueless about what species I’m watching, thus the photos), a package of natural history comes to the conscious level (I recall that the larvae of this particular tortoise beetle feeds on the leaf tissues of certain palms, covering its body with curled strands of its own feces until it resembles a patch of lichen or moss on the leaf), take the photo, shake my head a little (the wow! part) and move on.

This morning I repeat that step, stop, stand, scan a number of times, each of them with amazing results.  I really can do this all day!  I see an extremely large bullet ant, a full inch long if not longer, walking an area foraging, searching, doing its own version of “stop, stand, stare” back at me (all it can probably see is a puzzling, very large piece of round glass a few inches away and sudden bursts of lightning from the twin flashes), giving me the best opportunities to examine it in great detail.  A group of large ants (in the 1/4-inch range size) slowly harvest nectar from the tiny, bulbous flowers of a young palm tree, posing aggressively at my lens when I get too close.  Several species of spiders, jumping spiders, a wolf spider and others, carry out their sit-and-wait strategy, waiting patiently long periods of time on flowers or fruits or leaves for the sudden pounce or rush to the net to bite and paralyze its next hapless meal.  I interrupt one of them as she eats an insect and she ignores me.  Flies land and take off from leaves, the sudden stop of their buzzing triggering in me a spider-like reaction of rushing and pouncing, lens first, on my prey.  Click!  Photo.  Under a leaf moved by a tiny breeze, a shadow resolves into a resting land snail.  Click!  A small ant looks up from something it found, little white spots scattered on a leaf, its mandibles ringed with a white chalky substance making me think “Got Powder?”  Click!  Little flowers growing from the trunk of trees…Click!…the fruits looking familiar…Click!…they look like…oh gosh, tiny cacao fruits!  Click, click!  Must check what species this is.  Step, stop…Something looks like a mosquito…stalk…Click!  A midge, one of my dear little chironomids, sitting here, oh so pretty, on a leaf, with white legs, curled up abdomen, feathery antenna.  Click, click, click!

The hours go by, my shirt is sticky with sweat.  I don’t even care anymore about the buzzing mosquitos around my ears.  If they land on my hand or arm I’ll take a photo of them too.  Tiny mushrooms of all sizes and colors; the discarded molt of a growing spider; a swarm of fungus gnats frozen in death within the invisible strands of a spider web; more ants doing their thing; and then a prize.  I see movement on the ground.  A bluish-black wasp drags a similar-sized spider along the ground, seemingly having difficulties.  I kneel on the wet ground looking for an angle and an explanation, trying not to disturb the wasp.  These wasps hunt spiders or caterpillars to feed their larvae, paralyzing the spiders and packing them in underground chambers or mud retreats (among them the famous pipe-organ wasps) sealing the chambers with a supply of live but paralyzed spiders and one egg, which will feed on this fresh food for weeks until maturity.  The wasps are diverse, from tiny ones, about half an inch or less, to the giant tarantula wasps, two or more inch impressive warriors capable of fighting and paralyzing the enormous and invinvible-looking tarantula.  This one seems to be having troubles dragging the spider. 

I look more closely…The wasp lets go of the spider for a second and I see the spider move backwards!  Wait a second!  What the…?  I look closer still…two, no, three ants have a hold of the spider, one ant holds one spider leg, the other two teamed up on another leg, and they are dragging the spider away.  The wasp comes back and tugs, the ants tug back, three against one.  The wasp lets go and goes after the ants.  One of the ants fights back, enemies with similar weapons, mandibles, stingers, the wasp’s advantage its wings, the ant’s advantage: colleagues!  Two ants chase the wasp while another tugs at the spider.  The wasp retreats and rushes back to the spider and starts dragging it again.  It needs a clear path to its burrow, but the ants go back too, each grab a leg, and the struggle is on again, strengths well-matched.  The spider can fly, but not carrying so much weight.  Neither is giving up.  Finally, the wasp uses its wings to add strength to its pull, jerking hard, dragging the spider and the ants down a hole where they all disappear in a tangle of legs and leaves.  I wait to see if they come back out, but the struggle continues out of sight, leaving me wanting, the story unfinished, probably invisible repeated many times in this forest, thousands of times, thousands of hectares, thousands of species.

Later, at home, I look through the images, gathering more detail, recounting the moments, amazed at the details now splendidly magnified in my screen.  There’s no end to this, there can’t be.  Every patch of ground holds hundreds of stories, processes, species, lives, complex, interacting, irreplaceable, in danger.  From us!

This is why I write and take photos.  I can’t be the only one experiencing this rush, this amazement, bear solitary witness, bewildered and puzzled.  I need an army of observers and recorders, kids and students, photographers and artists, people seeking the thrill of discovering the world at our feet.  Then, perhaps only then, these forests will remain, persist and endure.

Carlos de la Rosa

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Common Amphibians of Costa Rica by David Norman

  

In 1998, biologist David Norman published a delightful guide to the common amphibians of Costa Rica, packed with his wonderful and detailed illustrations and observations on the species’ natural history. I had the pleasure of working with David for a couple of years, publishing a magazine and having great discussions with him about biology and conservation in Costa Rica’s Northern Zone.

I had the pleasure of providing 13 species photographs and some support to this project through the Environmental Management Office, in Upala, where I was working at that time.

David is a passionate biologist and conservationists, and his little guide and other publications, published both in Spanish and in English, are still available for purchase.  I found a good supply of copies at the La Selva Biological Station bookstore.

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Managed Ecosystems – The Mesoamerican Experience

   Another book I wrote a chapter for was Managed Ecosystems: The Mesoamerican Experience, by L. Upton Hatch and Marylin Swisher.  Published in 1999, it was one of my early experiencing writing and editing a chapter totally via e-mail exchanges.

 

It is hard to find copies of it, and I imagine it didn’t sell like hot cakes either.  Perhaps was the riveting cover designed by the publisher.  Who knows.  I’ll post here a copy of the chapter I wrote, once I clear the copyright issues with reprinting from books.

Used copies can still be found at Strand Bookstore in New York (http://www.strandbooks.com/environmental-science-ecology/managed-ecosystems-the-mesoamerican-experience).  Get them while they’re still hot…or not!

Carlos

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River and Streams Ecosystems of the World

One of the most amazing opportunities, and a highlight of my scientific career, was to be selected to author a chapter in this landmark book on rivers and stream ecosystems, edited by three of the top aquatic ecologists in the world.  The original edition by Elsevier is out of print.  The cover looked like this (will post the original cover soon):

   and it sold for about $200.

 

 

 

 

I wrote the chapter on Middle America Rovers and Streams, encompasing Mexico, Central America and Panama and the Caribbean.  It was an extraordinary effort for a young biologist working in a remote area of Central America with no electricity, running a little Mac computer off car batteries.

This edition by the University of California Press, released in 2006, has a new introduction and it is definitely more affordable than the original.  It can be purchaed at Amazon (http://www.amazon.com/River-Stream-Ecosystems-World-Introduction/dp/0520245679/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1335823208&sr=1-1) or ordered directly from the Press.

Carlos

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A Guide to the Carnivores of Central America

This is Claudia and my book, published in 2000 through the University of Texas Press.  The book is currently out of print but this doesn’t mean it is unavailable!  There are many copies out there that can still be purchased and at a substantial fraction of the original price.

While we do not receive royalties on these copies, we love to see people able to get a copy at a bargain price.  Check the link at Amazon (http://www.amazon.com/Guide-Carnivores-Central-America-Conservation/dp/0292716052/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1335821314&sr=8-1) for new and used copies, hardback and paperback.

Claudia and I have been toying with the idea of a Second Edition, expanded and in Spanish, which we would make available at a very affordable price to Spanish-speaking audiences.  In this version we would expand the encounters and the introductory stories to every species, add color photos and updated maps.

Let us know what you think!

Carlos

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Freeze! Drop! Jump!

What do you do at the sight of danger?  I guess it depends.  If you think you can deal with it, you make a stand and prepare to fight.  If the odds seem against you, you look around and take off running for safety.  If the danger is coming at you from above, you duck.  If at your feet, you jump.  We have all kinds of responses, made in a split second, some evolutionary and quite automatic.  No one really teaches you to duck if something is coming straight at your face.  Some of these reactions are also learned and, depending of the degree of danger, very effective or totally ineffectual.  In the movies we see so many people freeze and stare at the T-Rex coming towards them while our brains scream Run!  Run!  We could write a whole essay about why people react the way they do when faced with danger or a threat.  But what about simpler creatures, like insects?  I always walk around the forest with a camera.  I know, for a fact, that I’m going to see something I have not seen before, a species, an event, a behavior, a rare combination of all of the above.  So, my camera goes with me everywhere and I have been able to capture some very interesting, beautiful and even inspiring moments.  But then, after the pictures, out comes the finger…

After all the photos are taken, the observations made, the notes written down in my tiny notepad, and I’m at that moment of pure, plain and simple observation, I touch.  Gently, carefully, softly to see the reaction.  I have to, I can’t help it.  Sometimes, the creature jumps, which happens often with crickets, grasshoppers and katydids (obviously!), some beetles (like the click-beetles, which add to the jump a surprisingly loud Snap!) and frogs.  Other times, the creature falls down, suddenly and very purposely.  Small beetles do this a lot, as do some caterpillars, which often curl, wiggle and freeze before losing or letting go of their grip and dropping to the ground.  Butterflies and moths tend to take off in flight, but some freeze and drop, as if stricken with an electric charge, staying in this “I’m quite dead” stage for quite long periods.  Some creatures flash, false eye spots, patches of intense color, usually a warning color like red or yellow, brightly-colored underwings, or a feature of their anatomy intended to surprise or scare or simply distract.  The interesting thing is that, given the enormous diversity of animals out there, one is never quite sure what its reaction is going to be.  Which is, of course, the whole point!  That second of surprise, that moment of revelation that makes the attacker pause and wonder “Should I be worried about this?” gives the defending individual perhaps the critical instants it needs to escape, hide or deflect the attack.  It is, truly, a matter of life and death.

Some animals go well beyond the simple behaviors and adaptations.  Some of the “Freezers” use extraordinary camouflage to support their behavior, like the leaf-mimic katydids.  They have taking this to an art form, imitating colors, leaf venation, rot spots, fungus, lichens and mosses.  Add to that, body position (if you’re going to be a leaf, stand like a leaf!) and movements (some sway as if moved by a soft breeze, like some walking sticks).  And if all else fails, they jump or drop or twist or pretend to be dangerous.  My absolutely favorite, my hero of disguise, is a species of hawk moth of the genus Hemeroplanes (Sphingidae) that has taken the mimicry strategy to unbelievable lengths.  I have encountered them in the forest and, after the obligatory photos and observations did the finger thing.  I knew what was going to happen, I was prepared for the spectacular change, I had the whole thing predicted and expected, and still…

The caterpillar looks like a normal, big, fat, healthy thing, going about its business of eating leaves.  Upon encountering a disturbance, such as a bird or a prying human finger, first it freezes, pauses in its activity and waits.  If the perturbation persists, it suddenly transforms, uncannily, unbelievably and extraordinarily, into a very credible viper.  Its body twists so the underside (legs and belly) shows up; its legs gather together to form head scales; its head hunches down to form the tip of a nose; its thorax (the front part of the body) swells in the shape of a pit viper’s head, suddenly displaying two large, menacing, very natural looking pair of eyes, piercing, even with the expected “eye shine” or reflection of true eyes.  Your heart skips a beat at the sudden transformation, but the caterpillar doesn’t stop there.  It swings, jerkily, from side to side, “striking” like a viper would.  My hand jerked backwards, well before I could even think of doing anything else, my reptilian brain taking over and watching out for my survival, saving me from my own stupidity of sticking my hand in front of a viper, pretend or not.

This is one of the most impressive, unforgettable displays you can witness in the tropical forest (and believe me, there are many!), one that will linger in your memory long after the embarrassment of having been fooled, again, every time, by a simple, wonderfully adapted, extraordinary hawk moth caterpillar.

Carlos de la Rosa

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The Scented Tropical Forest

Many smells encountered in the forest are expected: the smell of fresh, wet soil, warm and earthy, for example.  Or the smell of the rain evaporating form warm surfaces, carrying with it the essence of the soil, the leaf litter and the vegetation.  Often, walking on a trail, one encounters a perfume, a delicate scent of a flowering tree, usually hidden somewhere within the foliage, its perfume permeating a small patch, carried by soft, imperceptible breezes and diffuse air currents.  Often too, the smells are more like odors, like the pungent, lingering tang of a passing band of peccaries, disturbingly close to the smell of ripe (very ripe) human sweat.  Orchids produce aromas that remind us at times of bouquets, or a hint of vanilla, or perhaps a scent that seems familiar but that we can’t quite recognize.  Ripe fruits carry with them sticky aromas, sugary or syrupy, attractive in a little sick way, like an overripe mango.  These smells attract wildlife of all types, from mammals to butterflies, birds and flies.

Many smells are definitely not pleasant, like the unmistakable smell of decaying flesh, arising not only from dead animals (where you would expect this smell to come from), but often from flowers, or plant tissues, which attract flesh or carrion-eating insects and creatures that get fooled by this most unusual but logical adaptation.  Smells like those produced by insects, like stinkbugs, can also be highly unpleasant, clearly geared towards interrupting a potentially deadly predatory attack from a bird, or a small mammal.  Nothing like a spray of caustic, horribly smelling liquid into your mouth to take the hunger pangs away, completely.

And then, there are those unusual, unique, rare and often hard to explain smells, those produced by numbers, behaviors, or by processes.  Like the overpowering smell of tens of thousands adult caddisflies emerging at once from a river and swarming around your head at a light trap.  Or the scent (if it is even a scent) of pheromones produced by insects and other animals, that trigger behaviors in potential mates that take over their entire beings, a drive to reproduce at all costs.  Or the often talked about “smell of fear” not really knowing what that smell is or even what it is like.  I’ve felt it a few times, in myself and in animals, while in the forest, at night, often alone, exposed to a sudden other smell that trigger a fear reaction.  Once I ran unexpectedly into a browsing group of peccaries in the forest while walking downwind of them.  When they realized I was there, they went off into a frenzied and noisy scape through the understory vegetation, crashing and snorting, leaving behind a trail of runny feces and a persistent pungent smell, stronger and longer-lasting than what they normally produce.  My reaction, also of surprise and no small amount of fearful shock , sent a sudden shot of adrenaline into my system, which sharpened my senses and prepared me to run, a typical fight-or-flight ancestral response. 

But more poignant and effective, also in similar circumstances, was the perception of a smell that reached even deeper into my human condition.  Working on a patch of forest, next to a small stream in the northern Costa Rican province of Guanacaste, distracted by the work at hand (picking aquatic insects emerging form the stream attracted to a bright set of fluorescent white and black lights) I suddenly detected the strong smell of a wild cat.  Blinded by the hours-long staring at the white sheet illuminated by the lights, I turned towards the forest, stepping closer to my bubble of light, the hairs in my arms and neck standing on end, sweat beading on my forehead and dripping down my face; my armpits itched and sweated, my whole body flushed with adrenaline.  Thoughts were not necessary.  I didn’t have to think about what I was feeling or about what I was going to do.  I wasn’t even thinking at all, just feeling the primitive thought of something out there that can kill me, something that thought of me perhaps as food, perhaps just curious, perhaps not, and the increasing desire to bolt.  That something caused my ears to buzz, my heartbeat to accelerate and pound on my eardrums, my gut to soften (which, in retrospect, explains at least a little the physiology of the panicking running peccaries and what they left behind), and the unmistakable sense of being at a serious disadvantage in someone else’s territory.  It was terrifying as it was thrilling, primal, atavistic, animal.  My body reflected all of these sudden changes, quickly enveloping my senses with a different smell, one that mixed with the now fainting smell of predator.  I smelled my own scent, pungent and sudden, the smell produced by a body in distress, a system on alert, a predator turned into potential prey, dread and alarm.  The smell of fear.

I often think that our senses are puny compared to those of other animals.  We don’t have a great nose, even though we can distinguish and discriminate subtle nuances in wines and perfumes.  Many other animals can do much, much better.  A moth can detect a single molecule of scent from a female of its species and follow it to its source; another can follow the plume of scent of a night-blooming cactus from over a mile away.  Us, we’re nose-blind in comparison with these champions.  However, we can still be overwhelmed, excited, paralyzed, enchanted, puzzled, scared, enthralled and delighted by the scents of the forest on a warm afternoon hike after a rain.

Carlos de la Rosa

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(1) La Selva Chronicled

 

This is a link to my ongoing photo-posts on facebook, chronicling flora and fauna found at the La Selva Biological Station, Costa Rica, where I now live.  Let me know what you think!

 

Carlos

 

(1) La Selva Chronicled

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Finding Each Other

I’m walking down one of the narrower trails at the La Selva Biological Station, in Costa Rica.  On either side of the trail there is a literal wall of vegetation, a range of greens going from the pale lime tones of fresh leaves on the tips of shrubs, through the pea-shaded smooth leaves of vines and their paler tendrils that curl relentlessly on anything they touch; to the jades and olives and emeralds of older leaves, mosses, grasses and even swaths of bark.  Within this riotous vegetation, a comparable—if not larger—palette of browns cover the gamut from the deep dark tones of wet soil, through the umber tones of rotting leaves, the hazel shades of different barks, the whimsical corky wings of vines thick as a baby’s arm, to the fawnish tones of fallen leaves, carrying with them the brighter tones of yellows, oranges and reds.  Through gaps in this wall, a dark, dripping and richly scented forest beckons, a place to get lost easily, ensnared in its incredible biological wealth.

Within this extraordinary setting flowers unfurl like gaudily lit ornaments, reflecting all shades of red, yellow, blue, purple and white, loudly making their silent calls to the insects and animals that will get attracted to them and which, in the process of getting a reward of nectar or pollen or both, pollinate them.  On top of leaves, creatures sit still, camouflaged, cryptic and even invisible, as if waiting for something to happen: a mate to find them; a predator to avoid; a food source to exploit; a moment to hatch or a violent instant to die.  Everywhere you observe closely, you find evidence of one of two processes: eating or reproduction.  Out here in the forest is all about food and sex.

On top of a mossy leaf, a slight discontinuity calls my attention.  It is barely perceptible, almost like a bump on the leaf.  Upon close inspection, a fairly large immature katydid sits motionless on the leaf, legs stretched behind it, antenna twice as long as its two-inch body lying like hairs along the leaf’s central vein.  The patterns in its developing body (still showing wing buds, tiny facsimiles of the adult wings that will soon develop) matches with uncanny perfection the patterns of the leaf it sits on, mossy, licheny, irregular, but so exactly matched.  I aim my camera and flash at it, struggling to find it in the viewfinder and worse, focus on it, and then, after the explosion of light, an interesting phenomenon reveals itself.  Lit by the light produced by the flash, the katydid is quite obvious and differently colored than the leaf it rests on.  So much that I do a double take from the camera’s screen to the leaf and back again thinking I managed to photograph a separate katydid than the one I was aiming to.  The camera’s flash reveals a brightness, a reflectance, and even shades of color not evident under the natural light of the forest.  The katydid is invisible only under the organic, green-tinted light of this special place in the forest.  Any other place, under any other kind of light, the insect would be evident, glaring even, exposed and, thus, prey.  Eaten.  Dead.

Another leaf, another bump.  This time, a caterpillar lies motionless along the mid-rib of a green and brown pockmarked leaf.  The caterpillar blends in by matching color, tone, shape and even the brown spots seen in the surrounding leaf.  How long did it take it to find this perfect match?  How does it know it has achieved a perfect blend?  The questions emerge unfiltered, anthropomorphic at times, unsolvable except by the universal rules of nature.  Given the forest dweller’s remarkable abilities to blend in, to be concealed, inconspicuous and veiled produced by the shaping forces of natural selection, how do creatures find themselves to mate, to prey upon, to avoid being preyed upon, and to reproduce?

The forest is in constant motion, all its inhabitants, plant and animal, engaged in a seemingly random symphony of action, orchestrated in shifts, diurnal, nocturnal, crepuscular, summer, fall, winter; with defined and often reversed roles of predator, prey, mate, contender, challenger, enemy, sibling, parasite, scavenger; all species with special tools to survive, even thrive, within incredibly tight energy budgets, where mistakes are paid in blood, lymph, or sap; where success is measured in nutrients, nectar, pollen, flesh, tissue, or simply by the ability to survive and live another day.  Creatures intersect each other’s lives and feed or hide, crawl under or fly through, capture or avoid, copulate or perish unfertilized, bursting with the primal instinct of being.  The rich budget of the forest and its teeming diversity appears to endure, in spite of all the lives seemingly cut short, the eggs that don’t hatch or get eaten; the larvae that fail to pupate, gets parasitized or feeds a bird’s nestlings; the seed that gets consumed before it germinates; the sapling that starves before it reaches the life-giving sun; the tree that falls and brings down with it an entire living ecosystem, now lost and rotting in the soaked horizontality of the forest floor.  Every demise engenders life and directs back into the system energy and nutrients.  The symphony of life prevails.

The characters of the forest find each other by their sheer numbers, by their highly developed senses, by their specializations and their adaptations, by their synchronicity and their timing, by sight, and sound, and smell, in a bewildering sensory range that spans the sub-levels to the ultra-levels.  We wander through this rich landscape with our own limited sensory range, like half-blinded explorers, seeing a lot but missing most of it.  So, one answer to the initial question is, slow down and smell, touch, hear and see, taste and feel the forest around you.  Eventually, if you wait long enough, you’ll find each other.

Carlos de la Rosa

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Don’t Step on the Leaf-Cutter Ants

09 April 2012

Don’t Step on the Leaf-Cutter Ants

You get used to it. Walking about on a mossy, wet trail (the equivalent of a sidewalk at the field station) you encounter a diagonal line of little bits of leaves, sticks and fragments of flowers crossing the path in front of you. They move jerkily but unwavering, going from the source—a tree or shrub that can be dozens of feet away—to the inconspicuous entrance to their massive subterranean labyrinth. There, the leaves and flowers and other organic mater will be chewed, mushed and tenderly placed on a special chamber to serve as the growing bed of a nutritious fungus, the ants main source of food. You step over them carefully and hope everyone, all those busy researchers, students, staff, cleaning crews and others also see them and avoid squashing them too.

In the forest, you walk with a similar care, at least I do. I watch where I step, avoiding branches that snap and make sharp cracking noises, give berth to solitary ants that roam through the leaf litter or the inconspicuous insect whose defense is to stay still to avoid detection; or even the very conspicuous frog, strawberry red and azure blue, that moves in the nick of time as your foot heads towards it. Life abounds, crawls, slithers and rests in every crevice, nook, cranny and pocket, and it is up to you to interact with it gently and with care.

Deep in the forest, the places we leave our literal footprints are even more important, lest you step on something that bites you back or gets permanently harmed by our substantial biomass. You avoid the tender seedlings struggling in deadly competition for the meager sunlight that barely reaches the forest floor; watch for the splashes of delicate tiny fungi, like small gray buttons balancing on wire-thin stems; anticipate the small salamander or frog that rests under a small pile of leaves, never knowing how close you could have come from squashing it. At night, the light of your flashlight illuminates a square foot of surface at a time, wavering, searching, not lingering at any spot for more than a second, until it encounters a reflection, an eye-shine, an anomaly. Then it focuses its harsh beam to allow our meager night vision to define what we could only briefly decipher.

I watch for these things when I’m in the forest. I swerve around seedlings for they may one day become the giants of the forest; I dodge the large hanging palm leaves for they may be the shelter to a wasp nest or a small colony of snowy-white bats; I step over a rotting log for I know it harbors a small world of interacting creatures. I’m retraining my eyes to see again, to decipher and resolve, to focus and distinguish what I once knew by heart but is now semi-lost in the recesses of my memories. The large immersive blob of green ad brown biomass that greets the first-time visitor to the tropical forest slowly comes into focus with recurrent exposure. With time, the details become clearer like a lifting fog, your eyes adjusting, sending better and better signals to your brain which accumulates, sorts and catalogs your sights. Your ears become attuned to the sounds, their direction and their source. Smells become names, shapes become species, colors become warnings or attractants, movement is focused on instantly. Your peripheral vision expands and sharpens, and eventually, often taking oh so long, you become a naturalist, a person that can recognize and visualize what is invisible to most other people. You master a new language made out of sounds, shapes, colors, scents and textures, and this language spills volumes of information into the canvas of the primary forest. Learning this language can take a lifetime, but how much wiser we become once we master the native tongue of the forest.

Carlos

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Long Hike, Short Distance

 

 07 April 2012
La Selva Biological Station, Costa Rica

Long Hike, Short Distance

I just can’t help it.  I start walking down a trail and within a few seconds something moves, shimmers, rustles, calls or sticks out and I have to investigate.  Camera in hand is a great way to experience the forest for me.  Every encounter possible gets recorded, photographically and in notes, to be analyzed, studied, identified and shared later.  And these are only the ones where I can actually get a decent photo.  The majority of the encounters are fleeting, high up in the canopy, far in the distance, or too quick to register on film (digitally, I mean).  Today Claudia and I set out on one of the main trails into the preserve, the Stream Trail.  Even before we started, we discovered a group of poison-dart frogs hopping, calling and interacting with each other on an old, moss and vegetation-covered rotting stump, right on the mowed yard near our house.  What can I do?  I spent the next 20 minutes crawling around on the soft, wet ground, looking for best photo angles, watching, chasing (without disturbing), and photographing these tidbits of natural history, thinking of all of the accumulated knowledge on this species that I have and how that would make an essay (nee, a book) on its own.  Add to this that this species is the subject of a project right here at the station, where they are discovering and testing amazing theories on this species’ reproductive behaviors, and I’m hooked.  The stories are endless.

On our short hike, we enjoyed being immersed in the morning normal activities and sounds of the forest animals.  The nearly deafening trill of thousands of cicadas recently emerged from their years-long underground lives, ebbed and changed in intensity as we moved along the trail, at times almost too loud to allow conversation.   Howler monkeys foraged high up a fruiting tree, surrounded by the gurgles of oropéndolas, the chatter of toucans and toucanets, and the small rain of debris coming down as a product of their work.  Within the forest, a low “whoomp” sound, diffused and mysterious revealed itself later to be the call of the male curassow.  There was a lot happening high up in the trees, and we, ground-bound creatures, could only look up against the bright sky and see the shadows and hear the sounds.  It was like watching a very fun party through a glary window from across the street.  Peccaries crossed the trail undisturbed by our presence; butterflies zoomed past us like flying swatches of bright color in their apparently purposeful journeys; a bullet ant foraged across a fallen log unperturbed by a column of termites moving across an open space, something you seldom see; a dead frog on the trail became a dining hall, carrion beetles carousing, feeding and even mating in the smelly gore, flies of several kinds and even a small golden bee partaking on the rotting feast.  Nothing will be wasted.

I lingered in several places, observing the activities around me.  On a fallen, rotting log, a bubbling slime covered the exposed inner section of the trunk, creating a slick and smelly resource for fruit flies, butterflies and other insects.  Smelling a bit like a slightly off brewery (hopsy and alcoholic), I imagine a few drunken creatures nursing tiny headaches this week.  On top of the fallen log, a veritable garden of mosses, small seedlings, tiny flowers, pockets filled with moisture and decaying leaves, miniature “swamps” populated by its own special fauna.  A medium-sized fly with beautifully patterned wings displayed and danced to a smaller and shy female that watched the show mesmerized from under a fallen leaf.  The male turned this way and that, tracing semi-circles in the miniature clearing in front of the female, beating and flexing his wings like a minute bodybuilder or a dancer.

Everywhere I looked there was something to be observed and recorded.  A helicopter damselfly of a species I had not seen before fluttered in its special slow way and finally landed on a leaf, the apparent weight of its slender and long body pointing to the ground.  Stealthily I got to within a couple of inches of it, taking pictures, admiring its colors and stripes.  It flew off and started foraging, hunting little spiders between the thick tangles of vegetation.  Again, my mental library on overdrive, I reviewed in high speed all the knowledge I have of these species, and as usual, I’m left wanting, curious, puzzled and hungry to learn more.  Another species, a dragonfly this time, landed on a small branch and began to clean herself.  Blue eyed, green stripped thorax, brown and black abdomen with a deep yellow spot near its caudal end, the specimen was a veritable color palette among the brown tones of the forest floor.  And then another species landed nearby.  It went on like this for hours.

These nature walks, armed with a camera, binoculars and a few other accessories, are not just a pleasure and an adventure, but for me they are a necessity.  Sweating profusely, holding still while a mosquito buzzes and lands on my ear, resisting the innate survival instinct to swat it off my face while waiting for the right moment to snap the photo is something I forced myself to learn out of the simple love for capturing and telling the stories.  It is what drives me and thousands of other scientists, naturalists, and outdoors people.  In a world overwrought with ugly human affairs, politics, mayhem and failing economies, global crises and wars, these natural places, these refuges for biodiversity must, should and could play a more important role in our lives.  They were our past, our origins and our habitats; they have the potential to be an important part of our future, as our pharmacies, classrooms, and source of intellectual wealth.  Today they are threatened to become relicts, only to be studied by a few, enjoyed as an exhibit by others, and valued as not much more than  a large pile of lumber, dirt and as places to grow meat, crops and buildings by a vast majority.  But within, inside and around these wild places, there is a breadth and depth of natural history that simply blows our small minds, filled with potential and possibilities.  As humans, we need these places to survive and to thrive.  My job now is to make sure more and more people learn this simple but powerful lesson.  And, truly, we could have a lot of fun learning it too!

Carlos

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Smell or Stink…your choice

05 April 2012

The new routines are starting to set in.  We go to breakfast in the dining hall, on the other side of the suspension bridge, a short, 5 minute walk across the well-tended grounds of the La Selva Biological Station.  It is a short walk with a specific purpose, from the house to the hall and then back across the bridge, making a left on the trail, and heading around the clearing to the old lab where my new office is.  Birds call from within the trees, fleeting blurs of movement and color, the scarlet streak of the red-rumped tanager; the yellow shimmer of an unidentified little warbler; the iridescent flash of a hummingbird.

But the little walks are also characterized by changing smells, bits of biology and physics mixed together in small, tropical olfactory puzzles.  The collared peccaries that nonchalantly roam the grounds of the field station looking for fruits, seeds, insects and just about anything else edible, smell like a bad case of BO.  It is their normal, distinctive smell, the one that makes you think “the piggies are somewhere close” well before you see them.  In areas where they are hunted, they flee at the sound or sight of humans, leaving behind a powerful trail of stink that lingers well after the crashing sounds of their escape fade away.

Then there are those hard to describe smells of certain plants, whiffs that hit you as you walk by and make you pause, digging into your memory for a trace of recognition.  They smell somewhat familiar, a little disgusting, vulgar even, almost recognizable but elusive.  You walk on, looking around, sniffing the air like an ancestral creature, nose up in the air, resentful of your meager human olfactory resources, wishing to have the nose of a hound or a pig.  Many plants carry smells well beyond the scent (or stink) of their flowers.  There are flowers that smell like rotting flesh, attracting flies and other decaying-tissue feeders, tricking them into a spate of pollination and perhaps frustration for the visiting insect.  Other flowers, like orchids, range in scents from the pleasurable to the disgusting, all geared towards attracting a certain species of insect or other creature, for which the smell is a powerful incentive to visit.

The forest is filled with smells and scents, perfumes and fragrances.  Some are accidental and rather purposeless, like the smell of wet soil and leaf litter, musty, earthy and pleasant; others redolent of old times, childhoods spent hiking and camping in the tropics experiencing for the first time the independence of home and parents; the miasma of a small swampy spot, its stagnant water thick with algae, rotting vegetation and bacteria.  We trek through this forested stage somewhat as aliens (perhaps returning aliens) long detached from the essential skills for survival in this environment, filled with puzzling atavistic memories, fears and instincts kicking-in in surprising ways.  It is yet another way to connect to our roots, to the environments that nurtured us and gave us food, medicine and shelter.  I only wish I had a Smell Camera, so these essential pieces of the forest could be recorded and shared like we do photographs.  For the time being, I’ll have my nose, my memories and my words to record and share the scents of the tropical forest.

Carlos

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Dancing with Beautiful Women

“And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.”  Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

The music is on, a fifteen-musician ensemble, professional and loud.  The beat pulses through the air in steady waves and hits you rhythmically, your eardrums, your chest, your feet through the floor.  Something happens to you with music.  Your heart accelerates; your body starts to move almost involuntarily, following the thrumming of the drums, the thrills of trumpets, the deep strums of the base, the unique sounds of human voices.  You feel a bit helpless and keyed up, waves of chemicals flowing through your veins building up a sense of euphoria.  You have to dance.  You look around your table.  One, two, three, four, no, five beautiful women sit around you, their bodies swaying slightly, moving on their seats, smiling, listening, feeling, absorbing the music.  More women stand in the semi darkness of the ballroom.  You stand; walk around the table, your eyes fixed on one of the women; you extend your hand to her.  She looks up, her smile broadens.  She gets up and, still holding your hand, follows you to the dance floor, by now crowded with dancers.  You fall into step as you walk, the dance already started, although it is just a walk, a march to the inexorable spot, the thrill building up, the anticipation.  She’s nervous.  She thinks “I can dance, but have not done it for some time and definitely not with him.”  Will she remember the steps?  Can he lead?  A strange calm takes possession of you.  You know what you are doing; you can dance, and lead, and charm.  Your heart still beats fast, but with purpose.  Your hands are dry, as they should be.  Your muscles relaxed, strong in the non-confining tux; your feet secure in well-fitting boots.

You reach an open spot on the dance floor and turn around, with somewhat of a small flourish, and face her.  She stops, looking straight into your eyes.  Your left hand goes up, gently cradling her soft and warm hand.  Your right hand wraps around her waist, firmly, and she feels it.  Her scent envelopes you, an aura of warmth radiates from her.  You start with the basic steps, left forward, left back, right backwards, right forward back to the place you started.  No words are exchanged.  She gets it right away, looks down at her feet for a few beats, and then, feeling the pressure of your hand in the small of her back, looks up again, into your eyes, locked in a fluid embrace, held by hands, eyes and rhythm.  You begin to turn to the left, small steps at first, letting your hands, arms and legs lead the flow.  The long dress swishes against your legs, her feet touch yours, a small murmured “sorry” that you ignore.  Won’t happen again, no need to apologize.  You get bolder, the steps get longer, the turns wider.  Her dress sways with the turns, fanning around her legs.  Her smile is broad, white perfect teeth sparkling in the changing colors of the lights.  Her eyes also sparkle, still fixed to yours, their corners smiling more truly than lips could smile, the real smiles of the eyes that people can’t fake.

You pause slightly, reducing the width of the steps.  She senses the change, anticipates something else is coming.  You show her your right hand, point at her left, and imagine the turn.  Left hands separate, her body led sideways by a soft but firm pull, slight pressure on her waist; repeated to the left, she gets it.  Once more, and then the turn.  Your body makes a full circle in front of her, her right hand sliding along your whole waist, and then, just as she’s about to give up and succumb to the laws of gravity and centrifugal force and pull away from you, your right hand shoots forward and holds firmly her left hand, stretching with the turn, her arm extended and then springing back towards you.  She steps purposely towards you, only to be guided to her right under your arm and hers, in a smooth full and unexpected, but beautifully executed, turn.  She comes back, slightly wide-eyed to face you, and you receive her back, right hand landing on her waist, left hand holding, cradling, rewarding her right hand.  Her body presses against yours, still responding to the winning physical forces, and then you step forward with your left, backward, back again, and forward, into the now familiar, safe steps, in sync with the rhythm, secure.  She speaks.  “Oh, wow.  Never done that before.”  You’ll never forget it now, you tell her.  “Oh, I don’t know,” she says.  You show her, all over again, smooth, familiar now, predictable and still exciting.  And she believes and smiles.

Dancing, such a strange thing to do, once you objectively look at it.  It can be slightly disturbing, as in watching people dance that just don’t quite know or care about what they’re doing, jumping around, moving the body in strange contortions, faces mimicking pain (in expressions incongruously but significantly similar to those produced during intense pleasure), arms all over the place.  Blessed people, in my opinion, that don’t care to look ridiculous, that enjoy dancing as if no one is watching.  Others, like me, are less free-form, more structured, even stylized.  We learned to dance as babies, in the arms of our mothers and fathers, who transmitted a sense of rhythm through their bodies, their skins, their movements.  We learned to associate music with movement before we learned to talk or to walk.  Rhythm is its own language, music the words, the body providing the meaning, the heart feeding from it.  And so, we danced, as we learned to walk, on the shoes of our fathers, or holding on tight to the legs and hands of our mothers.  We danced with other kids, hugging awkwardly, concerned about the ooohs and aaahs of the grownups watching, not understanding the fuss.  We danced in elementary school, shyly, pretending disgust but nervous as all out at the chance to impress the pretty little girls lined up on the bench of the school’s gymnasium.  Then, as teenagers, pimply faces reddened almost permanently by embarrassment, deathly afraid to ask the target girl to come to the dance floor with you, under the scrutiny of all the other girls and boys and a grownup or two.  By now, dancing, the steps themselves, are second nature to you.  You don’t even have to think about them, your muscle memory firmly imprinted in every fiber and every nerve.  It is the darn hormones you can’t seem to be able to control, and the rapid heartbeat they cause, and the other physiological changes that will make you die a hundred times over from humiliation.  So you fumble, mortified, your hands sweaty, your grip mushy, ashamed of your awkwardness and your lack of control, and the girls giggle, or get disgusted, or worse, slap you hard and leave you standing by yourself after you had stepped on her toes for the fiftieth time.

You grow up, your skills at the dance floor honed, your personality stabilized.  You go out steady, learning to synchronize steps with a person that knows you and your body well.  You look good together on the dance floor, all remnants of awkwardness gone.  People look at you dance, even pause to watch, to learn a move, or just to wonder what it would feel to be able to move like that.  You dance ALL the time at parties, while groups of men drink and sit and talk politics, and the women wait, vie for a chance at the dance floor with someone that can lead, that can dance, that  can help them move in ways they didn’t know they could move.  It has nothing to do with dominance, this leading thing.  It is expected, it is the tradition, a ritual, the way it started and the way it works.  The man leads by choosing the next step; the woman follows, immersed and secure in her own responses, not as subjugate, but as equal partner.  She makes him look good, she flows in seamless harmony, looking at the crowd, above their heads, seemingly immersed in her own lofty world, while the man “works” with her, switches, changes, turns, slides, her skill underappreciated, for it is a skill greater than his.

To dance with a beautiful woman is to love her through the gentle touch of fingers, of slight moments of collision and long periods of distancing.  It is absorbing her scent, drink her smiles, look unabashedly into her eyes and communicate without words, each of you filling in the elements of your own private conversation, inspired by eyes that can drown you with their depth while the music fills the senses.  Blue, gray, green, brown, hazel, black.  There are few acceptable moments in which you can stare at a women’s eyes like this.

In the crowded dance floor, the band nears the end of the song.  The muscles of the legs strain, the breathing somewhat labored.  Both bodies radiate heat, sweat, scent, pheromones and more that we can’t really understand.  You are both still smiling, looking into each other’s eyes, sensing the end is near.  The last chords play and you stop, still holding on to each other, one last look, one last breadth, one last rush.  A sense of gratitude invades each of you.  She thanks you for the dance and simultaneously you thank her for giving herself to you for those interminable but oh so short minutes.  You learned so much in those moments and so preciously little at the same time.  Your mind can not comprehend nor can assimilate the large amount of information received, as if your system, like a computer, overflowed with data and dumped everything into the ether.  Your hand releases hers, and you start walking back to the table, smiles fixed on your faces, thoughts lost to all but yourself.  What a rush.  As you approach the table, a new song starts.  Your eyes scan the table.  Your sore legs suddenly don’t feel leaded or strained anymore, as if the short walk back provided all the rest they needed.  Your breathing is no longer labored, your body radiates heat at an accelerated rate, sweating profusely but also evaporating and cooling quickly, readying for the next dance.  Your eyes connect with hers, your arm extends by its own volition.  A soft hand lands in yours, the memories of the previous dance all but forgotten overwhelmed by the new beginning, the new sensations, the new upcoming challenge and thrill.

Every woman is different.  Every woman is perfect in her own way.  The ridiculous standards we create through our attempts to socialize and standardize are truly worthless; they are models and ideals created through injudicious use of electronic image manipulation techniques with simply money as the ultimate reward.  The result is a vast majority of women dissatisfied with the way they look, wholesale or piecemeal, about huge pieces of their bodies or about tiny minor or insignificant blemishes.  Show me a woman that is trying to change or manipulate something of herself through makeup, diets, creams, fixers or other physical, chemical or physiological means, and I’ll show you a woman that has either forgotten how perfect she really is (like she knew she was when she was four) or hasn’t had enough men tell her so.  Moreover, I’d be willing to bet that she has not been taken out onto the dance floor and adored and celebrated through dancing.

Last night I danced with six women, six very different, perfect women.  Each thrilled me individually; collectively, they drove me to insomnia, as my brain tried to imperfectly recreate the volume of sensory information, feelings and delights brought to me by them.  Fifteen through sixty five (or so, I don’t really know or want to know), each of them vastly different, but each of them so perfect in their own special way.  Led by the love of my life, three cherished friends, a blooming young flower and an ageless oriental beauty, all so special, so generous, so unique, made for an unforgettable evening.  Teaching some of them a few simple steps and been rewarded with their smiles, hugs and thank-yous is more than a man like me really deserves.  For dancing with beautiful, wonderful women is an undeserving gift, a reward for a lucky break in my upbringing, which brought me into early contact with the subliminal power of swaying to the melody and rhythms of well played music.

Last night I danced with six beautiful women, and my heart is full of appreciation, admiration and thanks for their perfection and their kindness.

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Sucker Punched

One-Two, right under the belt.  Yesterday was Linda Jo, a friendly face I ran often on the streets of Avalon.  A familiar presence at Rotary events, one of my ‘fans’ who enjoyed my wacky presentations about animals, plants or whatever fancy topic I choose to throw at Rotary Avalon, my biggest fan club.  Linda Jo C. is no longer with us, passing away at the tender age of 50 while awaiting a potentially life-saving transplant.  I’m still trying to wrap my brain around that one.  Then today, a few weeks late to find out, as usual for me, John T., biologist extraordinaire, world expert in caimans, age 52, of cerebral malaria.  What the heck?  One of them, an important member of a small island community, involved, dedicated, friendly and active; the other a world-renowned but self-effacing authority, who died doing what he loved to do best, teaching and working outdoors with his beloved reptiles.

To die in your early fifties is, in my book, cutting it way too close.  At this age, we’re still very much productive, active, emotional and even sexy.  We play hard and work hard, privately troubled about our weight, our receding graying hairline, or a few aches and pains, but outwardly still very much in front, taking risks, talking a bit too much, having strong opinions, battling the noble causes and a few ignoble ones, just for fun.  We still can fall in love, we get embarrassed a little too easy, our face turning a deeper shade of red; tears come to our eyes more frequently than we want to acknowledge.  We start to take naps, but only when we’re not feeling 100% (which is almost never anymore).  But specially, we make plans.  Big, complicated plans.  Some of us think of retirement, of getting that sailboat, going fishing, downsize, and getting rid of things.   We have seen our children move on and strike on their own, and we’re happy for them, and for us too.  Others, like me, have started to plan the next stage in our careers, the one where we are in control and in charge, doing what we love, making little at the beginning perhaps, but keeping the eye in that prize ahead, the best seller, the script that sells, the book that identifies you, the paper that gets discussed broadly, the photo that makes the calendar or the poster.  For many, fifty is a bit late to start having these plans, these dreams.  But perhaps the way to look at it is that these dreams are not new or juvenile, they are the next step in our own evolution.  For me, fifty was the year to start the next half century of my life, my second career (or third), to write down what I have learned and plan to learn still, the consolidation of knowledge acquired and in search for.  I don’t see fifty as a time to die, to end, to read or write obituaries.  Frankly, I’m troubled by this.

I wonder what Linda and John had in their plans next; what was in their “To Do” list; what were they working to accomplish, what projects have they left unfinished.  I made a list of my projects, the ones that I feel I MUST complete next, soon even.  Yes, I can hear you.  I have a full-time job (more than a full time one, but we’ll save that conversation for later), and these other things, these projects, are just dreams, right?  Things to hope for and to wish for, to do if I have time; to do when I retire; to do… whenever.  Well, I’m 54 right now, older than John and Linda.  Did they have a To Do list as long as mine?  Did they leave a little mess behind like mine, the untidy desk or office with piles of papers, or the hard drives filled with open-ended documents, unedited photographs and partial manuscripts?  Is someone going to find the half-written letters, the incomplete stories, the unfinished projects, the notebooks started and never filled, the draft manuscripts, the ongoing travel plans, the phone calls that were never made?

There is a clock that ticks unheard and unheralded.  There is no destiny or preordained time, a set number of heartbeats in our lives, a predetermined time-has-come moment that if only we knew about we would solve the problems and clean up before we leave.  Life is not that tidy.  Haven’t we gotten the message already?  I’m mourning these two colleagues, these barely-known individuals, these members of the small and the large community, and I’m thanking them for their time here, their contributions to our lives, and the way they enriched us all, their close circle of friends as well as the greater circle of humanity.  And I’ll heed their quiet message.  Don’t wait.  Don’t postpone completing your own picture of what you are or would like to be.  Today is the day, right now is the time.

Carlos

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CAT-IKEA and other Feline Friendly Furnishings

Watching and caring for our four house-bound cats is one of those never-ending sources of amusement or stress (depending on our moods and the moods of the cats too).  Two large cats and two small cats make for a substantial amount of litter, hair, hairballs and droppings of the usual warm-and-slimy kind.  It also makes the house look like a giant enriched cat enclosure.  There are cat beds in various locations, a couple of kitty tents, dedicated cushions, and a cat tree with baskets, scratching posts, jumping platforms and hideaways.  There are window sills set aside for their near exclusive use, including some way above our height, that they reach by climbing through bookshelves.  There are two large litter boxes, one under my desk (don’t ask!) and one occupying the entryway closet.  There are also several open and strategically located cat carriers that they can use to sleep in or hide from each other (it is not always a peaceful “pride” environment among these four) and we even have a little cat-sized ottoman, arm rests and all.  There’s lots of space in the laundry closet and the shed for the humongous food and clumping litter bags, a water fountain with a gallon-sized reservoir and a filter, a number of special blankets for their exclusive use, and the usual cat-care paraphernalia, such as nail clippers, hair clippers, pill plungers, medicines of various kinds, even a bag or two of treats, several catnip-infused toys, a feather-catcher toy on a flexible wand and a couple of laser pointers.  I’m sure I’m missing a few things (just remembered the little cat-sized Santa’s hat used one year for the Christmas card), but you get the idea.  We love the cats and show it by showering their lives (and ours) with their support system and possessions.

So then, it is somewhat puzzling to see that they prefer, among all that feline furniture, the IKEA chairs we bought for ourselves, the IKEA couch and, if we would allow it, the IKEA bed in the guest room and the home-made bed in our own bedroom.  The chairs and couch sport a separate, cat-dedicated covering that we can remove when we want to sit, saving our clothing from the ever-present cat hair or the occasional hairball.  About once a week, we collect the assortment of furniture covers and wash them, in a attempt to keep the various bits of cathood at bay.  Vacuuming regularly takes care of the hair puffs that tend to accumulate in the corners and under the furniture, those that when you open the door on a windy day make you think of little kittens running across the living room floor.  But it is not only the IKEA furniture they like.  I attempted, with crushing failure, to teach these guys to stay off the tables and desks.  Who was I kidding?  With many hours by themselves (most of the night) and a similar number of hours with an extraordinarily tolerant human (Claud) there is no chance of any well-intentioned lesson to take hold.  The only exception is during dinner, when they get a consistent message: “Food on the table, kitties on the floor,” or at least a chair, as Boots likes to fantasize he’s one of us and sits at the head of the table, watching what goes on while we eat.

Desks with warm laptops and interesting surfaces, like keyboards, are of particular interest.  Austina has typed interesting messages on laptops carelessly left open, creating excitement trying to figure out how to find those missing files that mysteriously disappear or turn the keyboard back to English from the alternative and unintelligible gibberish that comes up on the screen as we type.  Remote controls offer their own unique walking or sitting surface, which generally results on one of us scrambling to find out how the language was permanently turned to Spanish or to get the DVD player to function again after their careless button-pressing.  The wireless computer mouse may not have round ears, four legs or a tail, but it still gets “chased” off the computer table and threatened with disembowelment.  Little dusty paw prints provide evidence their nighttime forays on the desks.  My desk sits in front of a window that faces west.  I like to see through it in the early morning, when I watch the dawn slowly paint the skies as I write and drink my coffee.  In the afternoon, when the sun becomes too warm and the light to strong, that’s when the cats head for this only westerly-facing window.  Getting to it is a minefield, though.  I’ve seen Austina navigate gingerly between two laptops, a rack with bills, squeeze between the phone (which invariably gets knocked off its charging stand) and the fan, tiptoe around the little sculptures that adorn the windowsill and finally reach the valued spot to catch the last rays of sun of the day.  Besides the phone getting discharged, I don’t fret much about this routine.  It is the particulates what gets a little old.  I’m talking about hair, dust, dander, bits of clay from the litter box, the sporadic regurgitation – a little too organic to handle with your bare hands.  Brrr!

I realize that the house is really theirs and that includes all three dimensional spaces, whether they are easily reachable or not.  The bedrooms remain off limits to their actual presence, although the space under the door provides access to the hair that accumulates under the bed and the occasional swinging paw trying to grab who-knows-what.  Regularly they push the doors (to see if we left them slightly ajar or nor fully closed) or scratch the surface as if by knocking we would let them in.  The guest room is off-limits, although occasionally it gets open to them by a guest.  And the guest bathroom, as much as we try, also remains catless.  The rest of the house…cat country.  So, I’m learning (it is a life-long process) to live with their signatures on everything we own, scratches on the wood furniture, hair on everything, and a stubborn stain here and there, learning along the way how to reach new levels of tolerance, resignation and peace of spirit.  Letting them go outdoors has always been out of the question (disease and fleas and other dangers to their and our health).  Surgically removing their claws has never been an option for us.  Discipline to stay off the chairs, tables and other human-use-only surfaces, is generally futile.  We just can’t be consistent enough to make that work.  So, we gently shove them off when we want to sit down, only to have them bounce on our laps immediately or sit patiently until we stand up to change the volume of the computer or get a cup of coffee so they can reclaim their rightful space on the preferred chairs.  We select our furnishings with 80 claws in mind, striking a compromise between industrial steely coldness and warm and woody IKEA design.  I think we’re slowly getting there.

Carlos

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My Dog and His Mom

My Dog and His Mom

My first dog was a boxer named Pucho.  He came to our house on a cool November afternoon, a few weeks before Christmas.  He was really tiny and cute, a face flat as a miniature pancake with a black stubby nose sticking out in front.  He came in a cardboard box wrapped in a blanket, and he already had a name, engraved on a shiny tag on his collar.  It was a gift from my father’s cousin, who had a bitch called Balalaika that had recently given birth to a small litter of puppies.  Pucho was pure bred, an expensive gift by any standards, and a sign of my dad’s cousin appreciation for us.  I was eight years old at the time, and had never had a dog before.  Pucho immediately became the center of my whole life, and I started to make great plans for his future.  He was going to go with me everywhere I went, specially to the next street where the “gang” hung around waiting for little kids on bicycles to venture into their territory where they would immediately confiscate any worldly possessions you happened to be carrying with you, like your money, your pants or both.  With Pucho on my side, I fantasized strolling right past them with confidence, safe and secure on my loyal fierce companion’s deterrence.  I wanted to try this dare right away, but was discouraged by Pucho’s inability to walk with the necessary poise the moment required (or to walk at all, for that matter).  His head didn’t reach to the top of my cowboy boots, so I figured I had to wait for a few days until he would put on some weight and cut enough teeth to pose a real threat to anyone with mean intentions.

We sat around the living room with my dad’s cousin, playing with the new furry creature.  When bedtime came along, we said good night to the grown-ups, and took Pucho into the TV room to sleep, after he had taken care of a few ounces of bottled milk and gone potty on my lap.  Everyone went to bed and I said goodnight to my new best friend.  As soon as the last light on the house was turned off, a long series of yips and wails started to fill the almost sleep household.  The sounds would immediately stop when the lights were back on, but resumed simultaneously at the touch of the off switch.  After a few lights-off, yip-yips, lights-on, silence routines, dad tried leaving the TV room light on, thinking that this should take care of the short circuit.  It didn’t work.  As dad climbed stealthily into his bed, Pucho wobbled out of his box, parked himself in the living room, peed, and started yelping pitifully again.  This went on for what seemed like hours, until I suggested for Pucho to sleep with me in my bedroom, where I could talk softly to him until he fell asleep.  A little desperate by now, dad agreed, and so Pucho became my room mate for good.

A week before Christmas, my dad’s cousin came back to visit, this time bringing her dog Balalaika.  Pucho was totally besides himself, which slightly confused Balalaika who didn’t remember having had identical little twins.  My dad’s cousin went into the house with my dad, while leaving Balalaika and his son to my care on the front yard. I intended to take her and little Pucho for a walk around the block, to test my theory on the effectiveness of boxer dogs on the gang.  I wrapped Balalaika’s leash around my wrist and instructed her to follow me.  She didn’t.  She sat in front of the closed main door to my house, where she had seen her owner disappear a few minutes earlier, her nose pressed against the wood as if glued there by a mysterious kind of magnetism.  No matter what I tried, she wouldn’t budge.  I petted her, pulled hard on her leash, pleaded with her, all to no avail.  She remained there, whimpering softly, nose to the door.

Alcira, our old Colombian house-keeper must have walked by the door and heard the strange noises, so she opened it to check what it was.  The effect of the opening door was instantaneous and explosive on Balalaika, who dashed forward at rocket speed between Alcira’s legs, leaving little skid marks on the porch’s floor and a small cloud of dust in the air.  My dad and his cousin were having coffee in the kitchen, which was all the way on the other side of the large house.  Balalaika had never been to our house before and she was not familiar with it’s layout, so she took an ever accelerating reconnaissance trip around the dining room, a couple of bedrooms and the living room before she heard the voice of my dad’s cousin in the kitchen.  Then, she made a hair-pin 180° turn and followed the voice trail to the kitchen.

I could follow this complex itinerary closely and accurately, since my hand was, from the very beginning of the trip, tightly wrapped around the other end of her leash.  This small fact helped explained some of the amazing wreckage left at Balalaika’s passing.  I report here that while a dog’s body is fairly streamlined and shaped to squeeze through some very tight spaces (like between the legs of people, chairs and other furniture), the body of a thrashing eight-year old is not so streamlined—actually it is quite a bit bulkier—to squeeze through the same passages.

Alcira, after the locomotive part of the freight train went under her, didn’t wait for the rest of the convoy to knock her over, so she jumped a couple of feet up in the air in a manner I didn’t think possible in a person her age.  If I had had the time, I would have compared her jump with some African dances I had seen once on TV, the spread-legged leap, the war-like cry, the wide-open eyes, and other details, but I was too busy concentrating on thrashing about trying to dislodge my hand from the leash.  I couldn’t do it in the first few seconds of the journey, and soon other more pressing matters took my full attention, specifically the fast approaching forest of table and chair legs that Balalaika was planning to go across.  Like an heat-seeking missile, able to make sharp turns and sudden changes in direction, Balalaika weaved a wavy line through the little forest, paying little notice to the carnage being staged behind her.  Not only did I plow through the chair legs like a runaway tractor, but the momentum of Balalaika’s switches and turns was related to my body through the leash in wide-sweeping arches, which increased the mowing effect on the furniture.  By the time we got through the dining room, the first populated station on our journey, there was not a chair left standing, and the table, while still on four legs, had a wobble that was to last for the rest of its useful life.  Dad, who was pretty handy with tools, was never able to stop it completely from wobbling.  I came out off the first station of the track more or less in one piece, but the best parts were ahead of us.

The next station was the master bedroom, towards which Balalaika headed at full speed.  She crossed the half-opened door at Match 1 with me close behind.  At the doorway I left my first sample of skin, a combination patch of elbow, ribs and knee hide, wrinkled on the sharp edge of the door.  She went under the bed and came out the other side, giving me a chance to inspect closely the wildlife under the mattress (lots of cow webs  and maybe a surprised spider or two).  It is amazing how your senses get magnified when adrenaline is fully flowing through your veins.  My sister’s bedroom was next on the schedule, and there, Balalaika got a little confused, stopping for a microsecond to get her bearings before trying out a new direction.  I took the opportunity to get on my one good knee, and attempted once more to dislodge myself from the leash using my teeth.  She made up her mind and shot out of the bedroom, and me and my teeth went shooting right after.  She then went to the living room, straight towards the couch, jumped on top of it, and somersaulted cleanly over my head.  The momentum carried me head on towards the bottom of the couch, under which I wedged with an guttural Oomph!  As she shot back again to her cruising speed, the leash wrapped around my shoulders and pulled me painfully from under the couch, leaving a raw burn mark on my neck (which I, child weaned on TV spaghetti westerns, later showed to my friends as evidence that once I was hung from a tree branch by a bunch of outlaws, but survived to hunt them down like dogs).

Finally, Balalaika heard the unmistakable voice of my dad’s cousin coming from the kitchen, turned sharply (more skin detachment against some furniture and rubber skid marks on the walls from my cowboy boots), and came to a triumphant stop in front of her owner, spilling her coffee and pronouncing a sharp “Hello there!” bark.  It took my dad a few minutes to realize I was the mangled body that had been dragged behind Balalaika and deposited by his feet.  With the dog under control now, he and his cousin worked on setting me free and rearranging my scrambled body parts into the shape of the kid I was supposed to look like.  After regaining my speech and muscular coordination, I helped dad pick up the tipped-over chairs and collect the little bits of my anatomy from the assorted furniture and walls.  Pucho wandered into the house at last, carrying in his mouth his little own leash.  He had liked so much the demonstration that he was ready to try it himself.

Life resumed its normal pace, and Pucho grew like a well-watered weed into a strapping young dog.  My hopes of having him as my personal protector were fulfilled fully.  Whenever my friends came to play at my house, Pucho would put on his full body guard attitude and carried on his duties flawlessly.  This made for particularly impressive demonstrations of his abilities.  Any time one of my friends would attempt to jostle with me or even put a hand on my shoulder, he would find himself facing the business end of a mean-looking dog, all growls and teeth.  One day I figured it was time to put Pucho’s resume to the test, so we prepared for a stroll around the next street gang’s territory.  We started walking up the street towards the corner when a large German shepherd belonging to one of our neighbors appeared walking casually towards us in the middle of the street.  Pucho interpreted his presence in the street as a direct insult and took off running towards him with a steady low growl.  The German shepherd, who was really minding his own business, didn’t take kindly this interpretation of his alleged breach to my personal security, so he responded in kind, grabbed Pucho by the scruff of the neck and gave him a solid thrashing.

Pucho did as best as he could in this first true fight, and not being totally stupid and willing to recognize a mistake when he made one, tried to reason with the German shepherd, attempting to withdraw from the fight by tucking his little stubby tail under his legs in true “I give up” fashion.  I guessed that because of his very short tail, the shepherd wasn’t able to see it in time and get the message.  Besides, he was getting warmed up to the fight by now and knew he had the best part of it.  Meanwhile, I was trying with all my strength to separate the two of them, although there was little I could really do by yelling to the top of my lungs from ten feet away, the only safe distance from the whirl of flying teeth and fur.  Eventually, with a final chomp to Pucho’s rear end, the German shepherd ended the fight and walked away.  Pucho laid motionless sprawled in the middle of the street.   There was blood and spit all over him, and I was sure he was dead.  I knelt besides him and cradled his head on my lap, crying.  By then we had acquired a small audience of cars and pedestrians who looked in silence at the pitiful scene.  A boy and his dead dog.

But Pucho was not really dead.  He slowly opened one of his eyes and gave me a questioning look that clearly said “Is he gone yet?”  He then took a quick look around to make sure the shepherd was truly gone, and stood up wagging his tail, ready to go home and tell everyone how he had bravely defended me.  It was then when I realized how smart Pucho really was.  He had tricked that dumb dog in believing he was dead, thus defusing his attention from me, the important person he was to protect.  Cheers arose from the audience as Pucho and I walked back proudly to the house to take care of his battle wounds.  He was to give me many more examples of his incredible intelligence for years to come.

Carlos

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The Alien Mind of a Cat

The Alien Mind of a Cat

The mind of the cat is a mystery many of us long to solve.  Many people infuse their relationship with them with a number of human characteristics, a process known by the mouth-filling word anthropomorphizing.  We love to think our cats adore us, that they rub their faces against our bodies out of sheer worship of us and that they truly know the meaning of friendship, companionship, loyalty and devotion.  Well, all of those are human traits, and it is probably well beyond the capacity of cats (or any other animal at that) to truly feel these things.  But before you raise your arms in outrage and start telling me (I won’t be able to hear you, you know.  I’m on the other side of a one-sided conversation here) that your cat did this or that and this proves, without a doubt, that he or she loves you, let me dig a bit under the emotional surface of our relationship with them.  Perhaps, once I’m done, we may have a different, more informed and still rich, mutually supportive and wonderful relationship with these creatures we call our cats.

I do love our four cats.  I care for them, I worry and fuss over them when they get sick, I’ve splurged a small fortune in vet bills, food and litter and medicines for them, and I spend a not-insignificant amount of time (not as much as Claud, though) caring for them and cleaning after them.  I also spend time petting them, I buy and give them treats, and I don’t fret much when they make a mess or two.  I value the positive impacts they have of our lives and yes, I also complain in curmudgeonly ways about the clutter and the chaos, the expenses we incur on and their quirky habits.  We made a life decision to commit 12 to 15 years (or who knows, perhaps more) in the company of these creatures, and we’ll get through it and certainly end up better persons because of them.

But they are not humans, so I hesitate to establish a human relationship with them.  To me it is more an interspecies relationship, at times looking more or less like those we’ve seen in Star Trek when dealing with a very alien and incomprehensible species, but also at times coming together as a symbiosis of two very different beings that find they are better together than apart.  They are mysterious like an alien race from another planet.  I often joke about Austina reporting to her mother ship (she does look like a little, big-eared alien) about something new and inexplicable we humans are embarking on, like putting a puzzle together.

“Austina calling Orson.  Come in Orson!”

“Yes, Austina. What’s your report from Earth?”

“Today I observed some very strange behavior, your magnificence.  The humans embarked on a project they call ‘A Puzzle’”

“Intriguing.  What is a puzzle?”

“Well, as far as I can see, they take thousands of perfectly good pieces of colorful cardboard and try to make one giant piece out of them.”

“And what would be the purpose of that?”

“I don’t know, your immenseness.  I tried to show them that the small pieces were better to paw around and send skating around the floor, but when I did that they yelled at me, picked them up, and put them back on the larger piece.”

“Very puzzling indeed.”

“And that is not all.  I hid one (by the risky process of eating it during the night) and this caused a great deal of consternation among them.”

“Why was that?”

“Apparently a missing piece makes the whole activity pointless.  They took the entire giant piece and broke it down again, put it in a box, and store it away.”

“Very interesting, Austina.  We’ll ponder on your report.  In the mean time, stay focused and don’t pick up any bad habits from the humans.”

“Not to worry, your felineness.  Until next time, this is Austina, reporting from Earth.  Meawnuu-meawnuu!”

Domestic cats evolved from a long dynasty of felines that include some of the fiercest and most powerful predators on the planet.  Lions and tigers, jaguars and leopards, and a score of smaller but no less fierce species, all share the same characteristics that we often see in our domesticated friends.  There are some behaviors that seem to be hardwired in their brains, behaviors that in the context of our living rooms make no sense at all, but that when looked at their evolutionary history or seen in their wild relatives, make all the sense in the world.  Boots, for example, approaches his water fountain like a cautious jaguar in the forest would approach a puddle in a clearing.  He walks slowly towards it, looks at the water, scratches the floor next to the bowl (as if removing leaves from the surface of a forest pond), and then drinks slowly until he’s satiated.  It is fascinating to watch this behavior over and over, making me wonder how a behavior like that, an innate behavior, still persists in the thousands of generations after domestication.  Lilu, on the other hand, approaches her water dish like a dog would.  She walks up to it and starts slurping noisily, loud enough to make you take notice.  Such a dainty little thing with a loud mouth and sloppy habits.  Oh well.

Another innate behavior is that of post scratching.  In the wild, tigers and other species mark their territories by leaving scent marks deep on the trunks of trees or stumps, which also helps them sharpen their claws for that essential moment of truth when they pounce on prey and need to maintain a grip until their canines penetrate the skull for an instant kill or clamp irreversibly on the throat for the last minutes of life of its intended meal.  At home, their behaviors are identical as in the wild, scratching, smelling, and checking that the scent is there for other felines to notice.  My territory, my space.  Also, they scent-mark objects with their cheeks.  That endearing moment when they come to you, eyes half closed, smell your knee or ankle and then lovingly rub their cheeks against you, is not really equivalent to the kiss on the cheek we give people we love, or our rubbing our faces against the shoulder of a loved one in demonstration of love and trust.  Nope.  Your kitty has just come over, check to see if there was a scent of another cat on your knee, found it was clear, and so marked it with his own scent.  “Mine.”  Simple as that.  You’ve been taken possession of by your cat.  In male tomcats, this “mine!” action takes often a different mode, that of “spraying” or marking territory.  Point the rear end in the right direction, Fsst! Mine!  Point again, Fsst! Mine!  Fsst! Mine.  When a large feline like a tiger does that, you’ll need a shower and a washing machine, pronto!  (I know first hand; another story for another time).  When your kitty does it, it is a bad habit, something few people can put up with.  I can live with the cheek marks.  The Fsst!  I can do without.

There’s much more to say and even more to learn about the special abilities of our feline roomies.  Stories abound about cats with special talents, like those that can smell disease and cancer deep inside people’s tissues; or the cat that can tell who’s going to die next at the retirement home and sits on their bed, just keeping the person company, like a tiny, caring grim-reaper; or the cat that saved the family from the fire.  These and many more stories fill page after page in newspapers, books, magazines, blogs and testimonials.  I love them all (well, not all; some are just way over the top) and marvel at the complex lives they have made around us, those wild kitties, those semi-domesticated little fierce predators of the wild, sharing our spaces and our lives like no other species can.  Dog owners, I know you have your stories.  Cat friends, you know what I’m talking about.

Carlos

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A Mouse in the House with Four Cats

A Mouse in the House with Four Cats

There is the long-standing belief that in order to avoid having vermin in the house or barn, especially the rodent variety, a cat is the best solution.  How many times have you heard someone say “Oh, Bootsie is such as good mouser!”  I have, many times.  But more often than not, Bootsie and his feline cohorts are, at best, simply resting on their unearned laurels, or at worst, living on borrowed fame.  I can attest that at least three of our four cats are living the lie.  The events surrounding the Mouse in the House week provided ample first-hand experience on this fact.

Mice are common in the grassy fields that surround the homes and barns of Middle Ranch.  Crawl spaces, hay bales stacks and infinite number of cubbyholes to hide and make nests make Middle Ranch a potential mice heaven.  Rattlesnakes know this and they appear, with some frequency, near the buildings and homes.  The barn sports its own mouser, Mittens, although I have never seen it with the mythical mouse in her mouth, nor have I seen her reject the handful of dry food she gets every morning (she belongs to the Clean Food Bowl Club, as far as I can see). However, the other barn tenants report that they do find bits of mice  in the barn and would have a mouse problem without her.  My biologist training tells me that outdoor cats never lose their skills and abilities as hunters, which is one of the main problems world-wide with feral cats in wilderness areas.  Millions of songbirds, lizards, rodents and insects lose their lives every year to these fantastic hunters.  Nevertheless, mice are common where we live and occasionally one makes it into a house.  Our neighbors have had their share of problems with mice.  The two dogs they have are no match for a ¼ pint-sized tiny rodent, and while they may chase or even try to catch one, they certainly can’t get to the places where these little creatures hide.  Besides, dogs usually sleep all night, often with their owners, showing the wonderful adaptations to people’s lifestyles most dogs have evolved.  Not so cats, right?  Cats are nimble, pure hunters in the flesh, instinctually driven towards the prey that inexorably ends caught between their sharp claws and carnassial (meet shredder) teeth.  Weeell….Welcome to…

Myth # 2: All cats are good mousers

It didn’t take long for our cats to find the mouse and for us to take notice.  The new arrival was announced as Boots, one of our cats (the other three cats that live with us were asleep), sat quietly staring at one of the cat carriers that we keep strategically around the house for them to sleep or hide.  Wedged in a corner near a stack of magazines, Boots, all 20 lbs. of bone, hair and fat (no doubt a thoughtful strategy in preparation for the unthinkable possibility of a day without food in his bowl), sat with his nose close to the bottom edge, a vacant stare in his eyes.  Holding this pose for more than 5 minutes was a clear indication that something alive was hiding behind, under or in the general vicinity of the spot of interest.

“What’s that, Boots?  Is there a mouse in there?” (Sorry to say, but we do talk to these guys like they could understand proper English.  We only use fully-formed sentences and no baby/kitty talk.)

In response, Boots appropriately turned his head around, a puzzled expression on it (believe me, we can tell these things), meowed softly as if saying “Would you believe this?” and went back to staring.

“Honey?  I think Boots found a mouse behind the cat carrier!”

“Good Bootsie!  Is there a mousy in there?” (OK, I fibbed.  We do talk kitty-talk to them, sometimes…)

I looked down into the carrier thinking I will need a flashlight to see what was in there, when a little mouse popped up from behind the carrier, ran around the entrance of it, up the side, through the top, down the other side, and then disappeared behind it again.  I looked at Boots, and he looked back at me with an expression that clearly said, “Did you see that?!”  Yes, darn it.  I saw it and I also saw you doing absolutely nothing about it!

“Honey?  Definitely a mouse in the house.  Boots will be no help!”

“Oh well, we’ll have to trap it with one of those live traps, right Bootsie?”

A day later, the mouse was still making its rounds, getting bolder by the hour.  Next time I saw him he was dashing across the stacks of magazines, leaving the safety of the carrier space to search for food, I guess, while Boots and Austina watched fascinated.  Austina chases a laser dot as if it was the most important thing in her life, tirelessly fixing her dilated pupils on it, running after it, climbing walls, doing somersaults and skidding across the slick floor in pursuit.  Ditto with the feather on a string toy.  I would have thought a mouse would be the ultimate challenge, although it seemed to be more the ultimate visual entertainment, eliciting none of the expected chase and catch responses from these two feline waste-of-predator-space.  They both watched the mouse go forth and come back to its hiding place.  Boots found out that he could see the mouse through the screened sides of the carrier, squeezing up and down in gravity-defying feats, and he found this extremely amusing.  He proceeded to stick his head inside the carrier to watch closely, no doubt crossed-eyed and with great interest.  I planned to bring in the live traps ASAP, having lost all hope of ever seeing any of these guys fulfill their feline duties.

That night, we were both watching an old TV show on the computer, having wrestled our rightful place on the two IKEA chairs that are usually occupied by our four-legged tenants, when I heard a choked squawk next to me.  The sound was not unfamiliar, so I looked over to the side, expecting to see a cat about to hurl a particularly difficult hairball.  What I saw was our long-haired cat Baby with the mouse in his mouth.

“Honey!  Baby caught the mouse!!”

I had barely uttered these words when Claud lifted herself athletically from her chair, flew around the back of mine, and hurled herself towards Baby with a perfectly-executed tackle move you often only see during Monday Night Football.  Baby didn’t stand a chance.  Eyes wide open in sudden panic, his four legs scrambled in place like a cartoon character, scratching in vain on the slick floor, while Claudia grabbed him from behind.  The surprise made Baby squawk again, this time in astonishment and perhaps protest, which made him release the mouse.  The mouse didn’t lose any time and tried to escape too, but to no avail.  Claud was faster.  Dumping Baby, she reached with bare hands and scooped him off the floor.

“You’re going to get bitten!” I yelled, thinking of tetanus shots and a suite of mice-transmitted diseases.

“Nonsense,” she said.  She picked herself up from the floor, mouse in hand, walked outside in the dark towards the back of the house, and released the mouse back to his rightful environment.

We checked the cat carrier and the magazine stacks to see if there was a family to contend with, a nest or other signs of rodent homesteading, but everything was safe and clean.  We called it a night, with my half-hearted scolding about wild mice and sharp teeth, which went largely ignored.

The next morning, a pair of tiny mouse feet appeared on the kitchen floor, all that was left of either the dumb mouse that got back in after being released, or another mouse that may have been around enjoying the relatively short but exciting life in a house full of cats and a fearless woman.

In retrospect, I think that many house cats lose their instinctual abilities, honed for millennia by evolutionary forces, the survival of the fittest and the search for sustenance in a Nature Red in Tooth and Claw environment, because of their association with us.  The easy life has dulled these instincts, making some of them lazy, way too comfortable and more prone to intellectual activities (watching and wondering) than to let their instincts take over and fly off at the first sigh of potential prey.  That’s seems to be too messy for Boots and Austina (and Lilu, who seemed to have slept through the entire adventure), I’m guessing.  Baby proves again that these traits do not dissapear all the time.  He still carries the banner of wildness and the predator instinct in his blood.

Carlos

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January morning early rising

 

There’s something to be said about the quiet hours of the morning, when you can listen to the soft sounds of a sleeping world.  Behind me, as I type, I hear the click-click cat claws on little padded feet on the wood floor as they move around the darkened house, always comfortable in the darkness, going on about their feline business (“Is it time for breakfast yet?”); another cat snores softly in her little basket.  Pretty amazing thing, a little cat snoring.  I hear the low hum of the refrigerator that intrudes into the silence.  So many of our appliances make noise, like the computer’s tiny fan, which sounds very loud at this hour and the clicking of a wall clock, marking time. 

But best of all are the sounds outside.  I walk out the back porch in the bitter cold of the pre-dawn, a breeze softly weaving through the oaks in the back yard, making soft, barely perceptible whooshing sounds through the leaves.  As my eyes get accustomed to the darkness, I start to see details.  A mild drip-drip of fog condensation from the eaves falls on the grass to my left and I can see it as well as hear it.  I notice the absence of crickets, common in the summer months, but it is too cold for them today.  I search for the sounds of bison, which some nights lay around the house, chewing their cuds, making soft but deep grunting noises to stay in touch with each other, a surround-sound quality spread out in the darkness.  Not today.  They are out there, but not close enough to hear.  I search for the nearly inaudible whoosh of owls flying, their feather tips design to silence the sound as they approach and fall over unsuspecting prey.  Not tonight either.  It is eerily silent out there.  One can almost hear the chill.

The absence of sounds makes my imagination soar.  My brain searches through its sound files for those I’ve heard at night before.  In Costa Rica, while carrying out studies in the forest, I spent many nights in the deep parts of the jungle, alone with my insect lights looking for new species of aquatic bugs.  Those times are deeply recorded in my mind, the din of rushing water at my feet from a mountain stream; the sounds of myriad insects and other creatures rustling in the dark outside my small bubble of light, smells mixing with the sounds, creating complex imaginary creatures, scary and terrible because they were made out of our repressed fantasies, out of control thoughts, more like dreams than reality.  Deprived of one sense, the others overcompensate, all creatively bathed by the imagination.  Then, a real smell, the tang of large cat, a jaguar, moving silently through the forest, its scent powerful, bitter, deadly.  He can probably see me, hear me and detect my own smell, sour to him, odor of potential prey.  We are so close that the hairs of my neck stand up.  I still can’t see anything; my eyes blinded by the lights can’t penetrate the darkness, a darkness that is like daylight to a night-hunting creature like a jaguar.  I finally hear the growl, a low, unearthly sound, deep, sound waves that are almost physical, reverberating in my chest, but making deeper marks in my now barely contained panic-stricken mind.  I realize I’m holding my breadth but can’t seem to move. I feel heat in my face as it warms up from the sudden flush of adrenaline to my blood.  If that cat was hungry, I would have made an easy prey.  I forgot about my machete sitting next to me in its sheath; I forgot about looking for protection, for a weapon to defend myself, to think about an escape route, to think at all.  All I could do was stand there, like a deer in the headlights, paralyzed, held still by the galvanizing thought of a potential, sudden death at the paws and teeth of the largest predator in the Americas stalking me (or not) outside my line of vision.  No matter that there has never been a single recorded attack of a jaguar to a human in Costa Rica in the last 100 years.  Never mind that jaguars have been hunted and killed to near extinction, their habitats ravaged by greed and development.  That day, that moment, that instant elongated by hypersensitivity into what seemed like minutes, hours even, was unique, precious, scary as hell, and REAL.

The jaguar moved on, perhaps never even stopped.  Perhaps even never gave me a second thought, just another stinking little human, penetrating deep into his ancient territory, doing who-knows-what in a strange bubble of light.  Better prey out there, better smelling and tasting.

Back on the back porch, I come back inside, to the warm house, shivering a little from the exposure.  The dawn light is outlining the silhouette of the hills around the house at Middle Ranch. I start to make coffee, heat some water for my tea, take a shower, finish the work I started to do before I got distracted, and finally go to work.

There’s an almost surreal quality to half-baked thoughts so early in the morning.  The sleepy mind plays trick on you, but it also brings with it gifts long forgotten, buried in the deep recesses of a mind overwhelmed with daily activity.  There’s something to be said the quiet hours of the morning.  I simply love them

Carlos

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Rain, rain, go away…or not

Thoughts and consequences of a Catalina rain event

It is late January.  I’m sitting in my dry and warm office, seeing the first (and probably only) rays of sun in the last few days hit the soaked ground, thinking “there are actually shadows out there.”  As I’m about to finish typing that sentence, the sun goes once more behind the clouds that blanket the skies, in preparation for the still-to-come rain.  We’ve been somewhat isolated in the last few days.  Much of the field work has stopped, due to unsafe road and trail conditions.  The field crews were buffeted by the winds and spoke of icicle-cold rain poking at their faces.  Everyone is doing work from home offices, writing proposals and reports, catching up.

I’ve spent about an hour each day pilfering satellite broadband from one of my employee’s homes.  Satellite connections are the only ones that currently work.  Our T-1 line, an old and decrepit copper line from town to Middle Ranch, has been pecked continuously by woodpeckers, searching perhaps for the imaginary insects they can hear or imagine are there from the humming noises this line produces.  This is all really a wild guess on my part, because I have really no idea why a woodpecker would peck away at a rubber/plastic-coated copper line until the holes literally perforate the line through and through.  Holes where you could stick a screwdriver through, I’ve been told by the technicians that maintain this line.  I really don’t know what these holes do to the information during dry days.  For all I know, the holes do nothing to the capabilities of the line.  All I know is that our connection is relatively slow but reliable, until it rains.  Then, water, with all of its conducting capabilities, gets into the lines and junction boxes (which also appear not to be water- or woodpecker-proof) and our connection to that great ethereal internet and e-mail goes away.  Then, only the sun, the wind and a few strategically placed hairdryers can get us back to the world of the living-connected.

In the mean time, we visit and download, as best we can (without much graphics or large attachments, and definitely no surfing) our e-mails and most important messages.  At least we have phones to follow up on things.

Trying to do some work at someone elses’ home with a three-year-old and a jumpy dog has its challenges.  Usually our visits are for fun and games, dinner, music or other social activities.  Work visits are different.  “Hi!  Can you play a game with me?”  “Oh not now, sweetie.  I’m working.”  “Why?”  “Because…”  What could be more important than work to a three-year old?…I give up.  The three-year-old needs to be occupied so she doesn’t distract the work.  A good PBS science show usually does the trick, accompanied by fruit and cereal snacks and a warm and cozy blanket.  Periodically my eyes drift in her direction, witnessing the laser-focus nature of her attention to the program, head rock-steady, eyes centered on the characters dancing and acting on the projection screen while her body contorts, walks, twists and even dances to the program’s rhythms in ways that seem unnatural to anyone but an experienced yogi or perhaps…a three-year-old.   The dog is another thing. 

Now I sit at the dinner table, typing away and I hear a sound that makes me think of a broken washing machine.  Whoump!  Whoump!  What the heck?  I look up towards the laundry area, nothing happening there, and then pinpoint the sound to…under me!  I look closer and the dog is lying down at my feet, his body jerking in sync with the Whoump!  Whoump!  Until it goes Whouaaack!  I lift my socked feet in time to avoid a large, slimy lump of partially-chewed dog food, which was followed by a second one after the now peremptory Whouaaaack!  Clean up crews (mom) appear out of nowhere with paper towels and I think, “Phew!  Close call.”  Then, back to the e-mails, the responses, the phone calls (yes, I was tracked down), and the sense that I can’t get much done by moving back and forth from the office to my house to someone else’s house, jumping over puddles, slipping and sliding in the soft muddy ground, avoiding streams of runoff, and finding out why cheap umbrellas and Goodwill raincoats are really not good investments, no matter how cheap they were.  Repeat the routine in the evening and next morning until the rains go away, the ATT crews get their trucks and hairdryers back to the hills, and the normal working environment can resume.

On the other hand…There are benefits to the rain.  Traffic across the ranch has wound down to a bare minimum.  Boats are not running in or out of the Island, nor are the barges and barely a helicopter takes flight.  All secondary roads are off limits.  Some primary roads have suffered rock slides, downed trees and branches and mud flows, so traffic is even less than normal.  School is closed; there’s no Coop, no rural mail delivery (our wooden box-on-stilts in the middle of nowhere with a red flag for “mail in” and a green flag for “mail out”); most of my staff is working from other locations, so the office is quiet.  Outside, the rains seem to have awakened appetites and activities.  The hummingbirds look radiant in their early spring feathers, brightly iridescent even in the indirect light.  I can’t imagine how vivid they’ll be once the sun is out again.  Coveys of dozens of quail are busily sifting through the drifts for accumulated seeds and other goodies, moving fast like extras in a silent movie, scampering and taking flight at the slightness disturbance, real or imaginary.  The horses at the Saddle Club huddle under their shelters or frolic in the mud pebbles, sliding and bucking in exuberant glee.  The pounding rain and the driving winds have washed away every trace of dust on the vegetation, cars and buildings.  Everything sparks out there; even our old worn-to-the-chassis vehicles look better.  The ravens look huge, all puffed out, a bluish sheen to their black feathers.  Mushrooms took their cue and are popping out of the ground like colorful blisters, yellow, orange, creamy white.  Green is everywhere, in the mantle of annual grasses, in the sheen of trees and shrubs, in the light greens of cacti, contrasted by the grays and blues of the sages and the reddish browns of the exposed soils.  The Catalina palette, its paint and colors fresh from the tube, has been renewed by the short annual life-giving waters of the Southern California semi-arid climate.

So we wait for the rains to go through, conflicted by the mixed feelings, wanting them to go on for a long time, refilling the reservoirs and waterholes, swelling the streams with current and life, soaking deep into the soils bringing life-giving water and nutrients to the shrubby vegetation, replenishing the fragile aquifer, washing away the accumulated flotsam of our activities.  But we also want them to stop, to give us back control of our lives, allow us to get connected again, physically and electronically, letting us to travel off and across the Island when we want to.  We resent somewhat the fact that nature still has a say in what we do and not do, but at the same time, we enjoy the relative solitude and the great excuse it gives us to slow down, even stop, and observe, listen, smell and feel the forces that drive the life processes on this Island, this region and the planet.  Rain, rain, go away.  Keep on coming, another day, and another one, again and again.

Carlos

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Cat Myths Exposed

Cat Myths Exposed

Ah!  Life in a small house with four indoor cats.  I often wonder, What were we thinking?  I can remember every step of the way, every logical and well-thought out step, and make sense of them individually.  It is the end-result what doesn’t make full sense.  Four cats that don’t quite get along; four quirky, at times pesky, smart (when they want to be) and dumber than rolled-up newspapers (also when they want to be), sharing small spaces with us humans and our complex lives.  Their foreign lingo is at times clear and unmistakable. Their body language, for example, is like an open book, telling you who is moody, happy, cranky or just out of the litter box with a load off his mind and body (James Brown’s “I Feel Good!” would make a good background song to their run around the house after a good time at the little box).  Their vocalizations are diverse and targeted, to each other and to us, like when they are begging for a treat, telling each other off, growling, meowing pitifully, begging, questioning, purring, demanding, angry or simply in pain.  We know the calls and the sounds, the moods and the personalities and we feel we know them well.  However, at times these cats are puzzling and mind boggling, often funnier than hell, and on occasions maddening.  Those of you that know me well may call me The Reluctant Cat Lover, but you would also know that the stories below come from the heart.  I feel I could write a book called “All I Needed To Know I learned from Living With Four Cats,” but I’m not that ambitious.  All I’ll do is share with you a few of their daily moments, those that have made an impression and stayed the longest in our memory.  Here’s to the cats.

Myth # 1:  Cats always land right side up

It’s 6 a.m. and I walk out of the bedroom into the kitchen, intent on making some breakfast and relieve the litter boxes of their night deposits.  The familiar “thunk” greets me from behind.  One of the cats had been sleeping, again, on top of the kitchen cabinets.  It is a long way up there for a cat.  It takes them through a somewhat tortuous path that starts in front of the cabinet that has the microwave with a jump onto the narrow space before the oven with barely enough space to crouch and take the next leap, to the top of the refrigerator, navigating magnets, notes and a few other obstacles.  Up on top of the fridge, there’s a small BBQ lamp, three boxes of cereal, a box of peanuts, one of cashews and a bag of organic prunes.  Not a lot of space.  But that’s not the final destination. One more jump takes them to the top of the wall-mounted cabinet, where there is a wooden bowl, a strange piece of driftwood and a metal sculpture of a mouse.  Between these things, there’s just enough space for a lazy cat to while away the hours.

Austina had the turn for the high-rise perch.  Other times I’ve seen Boots up there, and I wonder how he can move so much biomass up that high without making a mess (he’s a 20-lb feline behemoth, our own whiskered Lothario).  Well, not making a mess is not completely accurate, because I do find notes, magnets and cards in odd places in the kitchen, no doubt the results of a misplaced paw in his attempts to climb that mountain.  So, back at the breakfast moment, I hear the “thunk” that indicates that one of the cats has jumped down from the top of the cabinet onto the refrigerator top.  I turn and see Austina, trying to maintain her elegant landing position, starting to slide too far to the front of the refrigerator, carried by the momentum of her sleepy jump.  She manages to make a half-turn and stretch all her front claws in an attempt to gain purchase and not fall off.  Well, refrigerator surfaces do not yield to cat claws, at least not easily.  That darn baked-on paint.  So, off over the side goes her butt, which if you can picture Austina in your mind, is the largest, heaviest part of her.  No match for the front end, the rear end gives in to the forces of gravity, but her mind is still on salvage.  She slides off, clawing madly at anything to hold on.  She makes a grab for the cashew box, which being light, just adds to the mass that is starting to spill over down the front of the fridge.  Her paws move fast, Ginzu knives on speed, magnets fly, lots of them, the cashew box goes over her head and crashes on the floor, spilling everywhere.  On top of this mess, Austina lands, not on her paws, elegantly, cat-like, but on her ass, twisted, wide-eyed, awkwardly, with another, less musical “thunk” punctuated by a “meow-grunt” that was at the same time painful and pathetic.  She didn’t waste time.  She got up, ran over the cashews (sending a number of them to unreachable places under the stove, fridge and cabinets (I’ll be looking for wayward cashews for days) and climbed into her basket by the window, unhurt except for the feline pride.

Useless and strange information:  the words on the little magnets that she threw on the floor were “nipple” “two” “blush” and “could” which, creatively together, form the sentence “two nipples could blush” among other less meaningful possibilities.

Useful information: Don’t eat cashews this week at my house unless you don’t mind a cat hair, or two.

Carlos

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Introducing the Naturalist Life

This is a blog about nature, particularly the nature of Catalina Island (where I currently live), but it also includes essays and photographs from other places I have worked in, visited or where I have encountered stories and events of the natural kind.  These include states like Pennsylvania, West Virginia, Florida and California, and countries like Costa Rica, Nicaragua, Panama, Guatemala, Venezuela, Colombia, Germany and Austria.  Nature, of course, is everywhere I look, even in the small cracks on the sidewalks of towns and cities, on the top branches of massive tropical trees and deep under the roots of some of these fallen giants.  There is life under rocks and under the snow, below the muck at the bottom of a pond or under the dry carcass of a dead seabird baking in the sand.  There is drama taking place on the head of a small flower, within the woodpecker hole high on a tree or under the surface of a rotting leaf in the forest floor.  These essays are about these places and these encounters.

The essays contained in these pages represent my personal views and perspectives about the subjects, their habitats and sometimes the people that studies or protects them.  I take a very liberal view of what has been my life-long focus: the study, understanding and protection of nature.  I do a lot of photography to document what I see, and sometimes I add illustrations and even sounds.  While I am trained as a scientist, I am interested in many aspects of the natural world, from insects (one of my passions), to mammals, birds, plants and their interactions.  I’m also passionate about conservation and environmental education, using my photographs and writings to support my professional work in those fields.

Photography and writing are the tools I use to communicate what I see and what I feel.  While a picture can say a thousand words, an illustrated story can say even more.  It can change someone’s perspective, opinion, even their life.  My hope and goal is that by sharing these thoughts, stories and photographs, I elicit a response, an emotion, thoughts, ideas and eventually actions.  Many of the subjects that I’ll write in these pages are in danger of disappearing, bulldozed, chain-sawed, paved over or built upon.  I hope that through these stories, some of them can at least postpone their demise, and at best, find a few more people to add their voices to their protection.

A lot of people that come to my talks and lectures have asked me to share them more broadly, so that’s another goal of this blog.  A Spanish version of the site with original material is also in the works and will include more and better images.

Finally, the future of this blog depends on the moral support of the people that reads it.  I’d like to know if the pieces encountered here made any difference in your life.  I’d like to know if they made you angry or sad; made you laugh or think about the topic further; made you write a letter to a politician or made you change something in the way you do things.  Sharing these experiences with others will make the blog much more than what I could make it alone.  Corrections, contributions from your own experiences, your own photos or art, can make this blog something to be shared and enjoyed.

Welcome and hope you enjoy a glimpse into a Naturalist’s Life.

Carlos

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Naked Ladies

It’s 3:30 in the morning and I’ve been awake and tossing since at least 2.  A stream of thoughts come through my mind in pieces, almost at random.  Things about work, about people, about the upcoming vacation, things to do.  Nothing sticks there for long, mostly because I don’t want to start thinking about them too much.  Otherwise, I’ll be awake the rest of the night.  However, they keep coming up, like bubbles in a pool of molasses.  Reminds me of the tar pits I saw in La Brea, near Los Angeles.  Black, shiny pools of tar surrounded by grasses, shrubs and trees.  For millennia these pools have trapped animals and debris, collecting them and preserving them.  Occasionally, they bubble up, trapped gases products of decomposition or other nondescript chemical or organic process.  The bubbles rise slowly, like through thick honey.  I can imagine their shape (from seeing them in jars of honey) as miniature balloons, round at the top, pointed at the trailing edge, rising, rising.  They arrive at the upper edge, pushing the surface, struggling to break the tension, skins getting thinner and thinner.  Finally they pop and, if one was there, nose right at the spot, one could probably smell and capture the scents of decay, of past lives, of prehistoric and ancient animal spirits trapped within the depths of the pit and released like this, in bits and pieces, in bubbles, back to the air, to the primordial soup, to be recycled and reused and reincorporated into flesh and tissue by other living creatures, or to be part of the atmosphere.

My mind drifts into these areas, now corralled into an enclosure of writing.  While in bed, my brain was like that tar pit, thoughts bubbling up, most from recent “sinkings”, but sometimes, like tonight, from some deeper parts, hidden coves of memories that had laid undisturbed for years and suddenly something pokes at them and they are released.  Tonight I thought about the husband of one of my second cousins in Venezuela.  I know where those thoughts came from.  Last Thursday, one of his daughters lost her 6 year old little one in an accident, something that has been troubling me for almost a week now.  The tragedy had focused my thoughts on them, on her, on my cousin (her mother) and now, in the dark bedroom, tossing my sheet and blanket on and off in futile attempts at thermoregulation, my cousin’s husband surfaced like one of those tar bubbles.

Emilio died when I was a teenager.  I have few memories of him but one that came tonight was of his drawings.  Connections formed in my mind.  I have also started to draw again and, as I thought of what I wanted to draw (mostly images and pieces of my wife, close ups of her face, body, breasts, legs, hands), Emilio’s drawings bubbled up.  He used to draw and paint, still-lives I remember, but mostly I remember the naked women.  As a young kid, perhaps seven or eight years old, I looked with fascination through his drawing pad, which I had found sitting on an easel in his covered patio where he used to draw.  I had just that one glimpse of his art, one chance, almost 45 years ago, to fix the memories, and they have come back with the intensity and immediacy of that moment.  With the heart racing at doing something not allowed, I skimmed through the drawing pad, looking at his sketches, innocently—but with some level of morbidity—enjoying these forbidden fruits.  Breasts, naked torsos, whole bodies.  The shadows of darkness between the legs fascinated me.  I had never seen a naked woman in real life and the mystery was profound to me.  What was there, in these dark places that I didn’t know?  Full breasts with exposed nipples, textured and dark.  A long pencil-stroke that made a soft curve delineating a back that transformed into a hip and went on forever into a leg, resting finally on a foot.  A single trace of graphite on paper that came alive once the brain figured out what it represented, and the imagination put flesh and warmth to the black outline.  The power of those drawings was huge to me.  He also drew faces of women.  I hated the faces.  I didn’t want to see faces, perhaps because he wasn’t quite so good at it and they didn’t look attractive to me. The bodies, though, fascinated me.

Emilio did other things, but my memories are few and skimpy.  I remember he made slingshots, some of which (surprise!) were shaped like naked women.  He used some type of resin to shape the handles, which he somehow colored and gave shape.  I have one of his slingshots, the rubber and pouch long rotted away.  The handle is intact, though, colorful, smooth and polished.  The thumb rests comfortably below the two little breasts, using them as leverage for a solid grip.  That Emilio!  Messing with little kid’s minds.

The stream of consciousness continues to flow unimpeded over the rocky terrain of half-lost memories, somewhat tamed now by the process of writing.  As I recall the last couple of hours, the act of writing puts shape, organizes and captures the random thoughts.  Most get filtered out and quickly forgotten, to resurface again when prodded a bit.  My hand resting on my wife’s hip while I listen to her measured, asleep breathing.  The smell of the pillow mixed with the smell of her hair and body.  I turned over before I started to stroke her and wake her up.  I imagine an entire life doing this, during the day at times, but mostly at night.  We think before we fall asleep and these last conscious thoughts often shape our dreams, or at least infuse them with flavors and details.  This way primed scenes become chaotic in their mixtures, but in the low-resistance and no censorship of the dreaming mind, perfectly logical and possible.  In that waken state, eyes closed in the dark room, I think about the dream I just had, driving through a familiar city that I can’t quite place, talking on the phone with my wife, telling her step by step where I am as I get closer to where she is.  I’m picking her up and I feel the need to tell her exactly where I am.  I approach the corner in my car and make a left at the light.  I look both ways, hoping there are no other cars coming because I can’t stop.  I make it up the hill.  “I’m approaching so-and-so street” I hear myself say to the unseen phone as I read the street sign that I have now forgotten.  A random pointless scene.  Ends there.  Next scene.

I’m now walking across a busy street.  Other people are there too, trying to cross the street between the passing cars.  They have motors on them, the people, not the cars, like built-in scooters that I can’t quite see, under their clothes.  They stop and hover in the middle while I wait anxious for a break in the traffic to cross myself.  I make it through and go down the hill on the sidewalk, walking, or am I rolling?  I am also wearing something, like a broad belt under my clothes and I press something to it and feel small electric charges go through my belly and my back.  It feels good, not painful.  I do it again.  The point?  Who knows!  I don’t seem to mind in the dream so why should I worry about it while I’m awake.  Dreaming is like a random mixing of thoughts, neurons firing out of our conscious control.  When awake, we string thoughts together, make arguments, compose sentences, filter the whole lot, control anger and make amends to people.  We write carefully crafted e-mails and notes hoping for clarity, maybe brilliancy.  I write small articles, letters and pieces and send them hoping to touch some nerve, to add some meaning to the topic and the effort.  I lie.  I hope for great writing and amazing meaning; I hope the receiver is so impressed that I get the Wow! response.  I don’t get it often, but I keep trying.  The need to be recognized, praised and liked is strong.  Some past dark room in there in my mind that may be worth exploring some day.

In this daily stream of consciousness, we are in control, most of the time at least, unless our emotions overpower the filters and yank the reins away from our hands.  Then we cry, we get angry and shout, we get obfuscated, frustrated and say things we really don’t mean.  Or perhaps we do mean, but should not say them in deference and consideration for the other person.  Anger infuses the brain with red colors, with chemicals that react with what’s in there in ways that are damaging.  There must have been a purpose somewhere in our evolutionary past for anger.  It must have been an important life-saving device for us naked monkeys.  Now, anger bugs me at inopportune times, makes me stupid, mean, and unproductive.  Leaves me exhausted and stops anything creative I was doing.  It takes an effort to recover from.  I hate getting angry.

At 2 a.m., lying in bed, the stream bubbled on, bringing out these thoughts.  It is now 4 a.m. and some of these thoughts have been tamed, have been captured.  They don’t make much sense still.  There is no lesson to be learned, there is no deep meaning.  I may have as well been thinking about sex, or naked ladies (I was in at some points of the mind dipping).  Yeap.  There they are in the above paragraphs.  Forty-some years thinking about naked ladies.  The fascination has never stopped.  Thanks, Emilio, for the priming.

Carlos

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Doing What I Love

I love writing.  I get to do quite a bit of it at work (the day time job thing I do) but certainly not enough and not the “right” kind, the kind that gets me excited, that brings out the best thoughts, that tickles the funny bone and squeezes the tear glands.  At work I write a lot of reports, proposals, memos, and e-mails.  Yeah, yuk is right.  But once in a while I’m able to carve out some time to pen a nice short story about a beetle I saw and photographed; or about a researcher that I just met and spent a few precious hours in the field with.  I pay dearly for those hours, because they awake the little bio-monster that lives in me that remembers field work as my main job, oh so long ago.  I also love to write those stories because they give me the opportunity to have conversations with people about things I care about,  one-sided conversations most of the time, but heck, that’s what writers do.  They talk to audiences of strangers that they’ll never meet, although once in a blue moon, someone writes back and tells them how their story made a difference to them, and that is very cool.

Most of my writing has been directed at individuals (letters), small audiences (newsletter pieces), or a selected incredibly few individuals that like to read what I write, although it puzzles me sometimes why they like this stuff.  I puzzle because I’m an inconsistent writer.  I don’t write enough, often enough, or well enough to deserve the title, but at least I’m making the effort to write as often as I can.

I want my writing to change lives, and if that’s too ambitious, at least to change their present, like the moment when they read something and cry, or laugh, or feel outraged or scared or amazed.  Anything but bored or indifferent.  And to get to that point, I need to write more, write better and more consistently. That’s where the daytime job gets in the way, but then, it pays the bills and provides lots of “content” for my writing.

So I dream of the day when I can leave the old job behind and start the new job as a writer.  I’m really working on that dream as we speak, reading about platforms and marketing, blogs and websites, editors and agents, and all of those elements that form the frame of the life of a writer.  I feel I’m studying as I write, trying different things, short fiction, novels, scripts, short stories, biographical novellas, youth books and pieces, thought and opinion, humor, kids stories and cat stories, non-fiction of all kinds, from to-do pieces to scientific papers, newspaper articles, photo books.  Scatterbrained?  Perhaps, but how else would I discover what I’m good at if I don’t try it?

So here’s the deal.  I’ll post my writings and projects here, and you read them and comment on them, or ignore them if you find yourself nodding off after the third sentence.  But if what you read makes you laugh, cry, sad, angry, concerned about my mental health, amused, or simply makes you shrug your shoulders or lift your eyebrows and say “what the heck was that?” let me know.  Use these pages as your own small platform to voice your opinion and your thoughts.  Let’s create a conversation, one that can be joined by others into a community of thought, a tribe of readers and lovers of the written word.  Are you in?

Carlos

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